a search for character.. seeking meaning of life.. losing naivete in the process..

Finally.. PhOtOs!!

Here are some of the photos i took in the past month.. there are more to come.. but i have no time to make a collage out of it..

Tiring sunday..

I'm feeling more and more like a student.. spent the whole afternoon in MIS doing project with wei and his project mates.. It's so uninteresting when the project doesnt seemed to be progressing and all the members seemed to be more interested in the minor details rather than the main content.. i'm tired.. the deadline is supposed to be on the coming tuesday and the report is still not finalised and compiled.. i'm supposed to help!! *faint* i wonder how i can finish everything on a monday night.. apparently, there's no team work.. coz one member left to watch mama mia and she's the one with the laptop. the meeting got to come to a halt.. heading home.. and i have nothing to compile till she sends me the file.. and i have waited for it since 6.30pm.. how crap. Wonder why these people can criticise others while they are displaying similar behaviours..

tough work ahead..

Work's gonna be more tough in the future in my office. Last friday, for the first time since i joined angie, the whole office (level 2 staff) had a briefing by joseph.. right in the middle of the office, right behind my desk. it was intimidating when i found joseph standing there that morning.. staring in my directon. i thought it was weird.. he simply just stood there, standing into the blank air, in the direction of my desk. he somehow made my heart beat faster.. tot he was going to scold me or something.. just moments later, i found out that he has got something to announce.. *sweat* (thinking: "i wonder what it is..Oops..")

everyone gathered and stood in a circle.. and i felt like a piece of bread.. having slaps of butter being spread on me.. *grrr* guess everyone felt the same way.. the atmosphere was tense..

i could hear my heart beat faster all the time.. wonder if a whizzing arrow will head towards me.. we were told to watch our time.. and not take the freedom we had for granted.. eating breakfast during office hours.. no personal calls/sms..bla bla bla.. i know this sounds like reprimanding kids.. and believe it or not.. i actually have to agree with him.. many of us, in the course of our lives, somehow will take things for granted and try to push things a little too far.. and i admit that i havent been arriving on time for ages.. i'm always a couple of minutes late.. *grinz*

the whole office other than s-mama arrived later than me on that fateful friday morning..everyone have been taking things easy.. strolling in slowly only to find joseph looking at them.. *Oops*

anyway, we are going to have auditors from kpmg coming into our office.. so we gonna watch our behaviour a little.. at least while they are here..

Woo Hoo!!!

I'm super happy now.. i just fixed my computer and it's finally up and running!!! What a great day to spend an afternoon at home.. Now that my computer is fixed.. i'll be coming online more often!!

It's now time to bathe and get ready to get out of the house!! Gonna get out already.. need some fresh air!

the buyer i met is such a sweet girl! anyway, i made this observation recently.. Michie, jac and myself are all not blogging as often..i guess the work is stretching our time too much.. i havent got the time to sleep enough.. not to say do anything else.. but i'm trying to blog as often as possible.. even tho im so beat at times..

feeling down..

It's an unpleasant day in the office and i dont wish to talk about it.. somehow it sets me thinking of myself.. my personality.. my character.. the kinda image that i unknowingly project to people.. i wonder how it is like.. to be someone and viewing me from afar.. how it is like.. to be a friend of mine..

for those of you reading my blog.. mind dropping a couple of comments on me? Good/bad comments.. i'm all ears..

I worked late in the office today.. left only when my colleagues left.. my work not done even though it's supposed to be sent out tomorrow.. but i left anyway.. cant trust to work in the office alone.. there are many male sabah workers dwelling in the office building and since its in the industrial park.. it's almost deserted at night.. hardly can see a soul in sight..

am still trying to recover from the fatigue that i accumulated over the last week + the weekend.. getting sick really soon.. throat inflammed once again..

Oops.. got to leave the house to meet this buyer.. maybe i'll do a little retail therapy to perk myself up! *grinz*

ain't perfect..

for the past few days, i have been stinking of oil & smoke ("you yen").. the kinda smell if you stay in the kitchen when someone is cooking.. my shoes, my jeans, my tank top, my uniform, my bag and my hair!! I've kinda grown conscious of it while in the train.. hoping that the people surrounding me wont shun me coz of it.. that's one of the consequences of working at the food festival..

somehow, i feel more motivated to blog today (even tho i worked 11 & a half hrs today) coz i know i dun have to wake tomorrow morning. since it's the last day of the festival, i'll have to pack up, so i heading there in only around noon time.. conserve my energy for the night.. my customer service manager will hold the fort in the morning.. hee..

here are some things that i learnt abt working in a food festival:
1. Always wear your uniform around while buying food. somehow, a better deal will pop by.. (larger portions, more value, slightly cheaper rates, more freebies..)
2. Make friends with your neighbours and you'll have loads to eat/drink + free advertising (word of mouth) to your customers..
3. cakes can always be traded for ba gua and keropok.. hee..
4. the salary for the day will always end up in someone's else pocket.. (cant resist the temptation to try different kinds of food each day.. haha..)

anyway, though its been quite enjoyable in a way in the past few days.. i, too met my share of unhappiness and frustrations.. i have been complained against.. somehow i feel im in it alone.. struggling to keep it going.. i feel so demotivated and demoralized at times.. somehow the results for the booth aint fantastic.. but i know i have done my best.. i tried and i'm glad i did.. definitely learnt many things out of this episode..

as for the complaints.. it made me realise that people are just fond of complaining.. it's almost next to human nature.. i have been complained at.. and then realising that "complainer" (the one that lodged the complaint) is displaying the same actions that i was complained for.. isnt this funny? i think it's just simply too simple for us to just rattle off.. and then not realising that we, ourselves are doing the same thing! i thought abt it and i think i might have done the very same act in the past.. so, i dun really blame her.. but somehow.. it made me more conscious abt me complaining about someone else.. Maybe i should refrain myself from complaining in the future..

somehow i miss my cosy desk, my chair and my stupid slow computer in the office. I havent seen it for many days.. somehow it feels kinda weird..

Oh.. i also want to show my appreciation to michie & Jon, jac, who came to offer me support.. and helped me around the booth..and cheering up my days simply by just spending time walking around with me testing all the food.. You girls + 1 guy simply perked up my long work days.. and also to yee tat.. who made a trip there on saturday but i wasnt at the booth.. Thanks for coming.. and also to kelvin ("xiao ping guo" - my phs junior), who showed support by buying one of my cakes!! It's been glad meeting you!!

am really tired for now.. need to go snuggle in bed with my little doggy.. bye for now..

Seasons??

You're a Summer. You're just a ball of energy that
is constantly going on and on!! You're kinda
like the energizer bunny. lol. But your
probably really athletic and even if you're
not, you'd be good in sports because of all
your energy. You're enthusiastic about
everything you do and find it hard not to be
happy. You're usually pretty optimistic but can
be realistic when needed. You always hope for
the best to turn out and many times they do.
Sometimes though, you let your temper get the
best of you but you apologize as soon as you
can because you hate people being angry with
you. You're friends love how active you are and
you make them feel like they can do anything
crazy if they want to.


What season are you? (pics)
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Fatigued.

I cant believe this.. while i was trying to write this blog.. i went off to read michie's email regarding my graduation photos!! argh! after that.. i realised my window for blogger is GONE! argh! i might have accidentally closed it since the computer almost hung when i tried to read the big file that michie was sending me.. *sigh* i'll try to recap what i wrote earlier..

Monday was hectic with a long meeting and loads of things for rush.. worked till almost 8pm at night...

Tuesday was almost much the same, had a meeting with the MD again.. (i seemed to seeing him in meeting rooms very often now..), more work to accomplish.. had to prepare and coordinate all areas with regards to the food festival this coming thursday.. Wont be coming into office on wed since i have to head down to suntec and set up the booth.... OT-ed till 9pm.. had to leave coz the alarm is going to be activated.. got to leave me work for the next day.. argh!

headed into the office this morning and everyone was surprised to see me.. well.. what to do.. my posters arent ready and i had to rush through it.. argh! and then had to send them to the printer's.. left in a hurry and didnt double check my posters.. argh! mistakes!! *faint* what done cannot be done.. darn! Went to drop my gown at riverwalk and rushed down to suntec.. help to decorate the booth.. walked around to survey the rest of the booths there.. polka has got this really interesting backdrop with all the polka cans.. Hmmm.. interesting idea..stayed there till 8+ then decided to leave coz i was so tired.. I need to go sleep soon.. my throat is getting inflammed.. i didnt drink enough water for the water.. didnt have dinner and took a really late brunch at 2.15pm.. I feel like i'm half dead..

can anyone help to inject more energy into me? I'm struggling to keep awake to write this blog..

Oh.. for those of you who might be in suntec over the weekend, you might want to pop by to visit me.. the food fest is at hall 404, suntec convention center, angie the choice booth is at C10, somewhere near the entrance.. dunno where.. look out for the big balloon with the logo..

Night for now. Don't think will have the energy to write my blog for the whole weekend..

Time for bed... *yawnz*

Mad rush..

the international food festival coming up soon.. i've been working late recently. new outlet opening @ harbourfront mall on last saturday.. and i worked till 7+ to rush out some stuff for the opening..

Spent the whole friday rushing around.. went wei's house and watch him study.. poor boy..so tired yet trying to study.. reminds me of those days where i ALWAYS doze off while reading the text.

woke up on sat morning really early.. coz i had to send wei to his mid-term test and intensive class.. haha. could have slept at home, but i needed to use his car to head towards harbourfront mall.. spent the rest of the morning there.. helping out.. checking out the malls.. a little shopping.. went back to wei's school.. realised he left to have lunch before his class starts.. Oh well.. parked the car and walked to the bus stop.. heading toward ikea for shopping again.. alone!

kinda boring saturday afternoon.. couldnt find someone to go out with.. *sigh* Met toto & qunyu at rail mall for some kopi.. saw the graduation photos that qunyu took on graduation day.. hee..

Had dinner with wei & ka, and headed home quick coz wei have to study for the next day's test.. Im super tired and sat there knitting till i dozed off.

Sun was not much better.. woke really early coz wei had to rush to school for the test.. i dropped him off and headed home to change. Met pei & raphael for wakeboarding at 1pm. Stupid raphael, late. got to raffles marina only at 1.30pm.. wakeboarded for 1 & 1/2 hrs.. i think i strained my back.. hurts like hell.. but well.. it's still so fun.. Quickly bathed and headed to fetch wei.. dropped raphael at queenstown.. fetched wei and headed for some food..

Pei was still with me all these while.. till i dropped her off to meet ziming in town.. *grinz* Headed to raffles place to meet michie for photoshoot.. for graduation.. hee.. so fun.. but smiled till i think i looked fake..

photoshoot ended when the sun set.. and wei & me left coz we were supposed to have dinner with this friend that's leaving for taiwan for a year.. Dinner was long.. and had drinks in a pub after that.. Super tired, but i cant leave early since we were throwing kinda like a farewell party for that guy....

i simply konked out the moment i reached home...

Weird...

It's a busy day in the office.. and i just got back home after having dinner with raphael & toto.. Was supposed to kinda celebrate raphael's bdae..

anyway.. i havent been able to publish any post on blogger since yesterday.. i hope this blog entry goes through.. so frustrating to be clicking on that publish button so many times and not seeing it on the blog.. :(

Busy week..

It's been such a busy week for me.. Met up with jac yesterday to head down to zouk for Seventeen birthday bash.. was invited coz i'm one of the sponsers for the prizes.. and jac went as an undercover (as Angie the Choice employee).. haha.. she got to fake as my colleague..

Met rosemarie at the event.. found out that she's working for ZA.. Interesting. Anyway, wanted to go shopping so kinda left before the event started.. but wow.. free drinks and chocolate dipped fruits.. reminded me of the caramel apple that i bought in disneyland half a year ago.. they were serving chocolate-dipped apples.. Didnt wanna try. Too sweet.. *yucks*

Headed to plaza sing to shop.. bought myself some yarn for some hobby.. *grinz* walked around a bit to help jac's cousin to find a pair of heels for her convo.. Finally had dinner at 9+.. Wow.. super hungry..

It's tiring, but somehow eventful.. I wish i didnt need to sleep.. there are so many things that i want to do yet, have no time for.. I need to plan my time properly.. hee..

Oh.. I'm planning for wakeboarding this sunday.. venue not confirmed yet. going with belle & raphael for the moment.. Any more takers?

p.s. ethokia - wanna come along?

a little secret..

Here's a little paragraph that reveals a little secret of mine..

sti neeb a das yad rof em yadretsey.. i dehs owt gib spords fo sreat ni eht bac no eht yaw emoh.. i saw yllaer tespu. i dnuof tuo taht iew sah tog tset no yadrutas..dna elohw yad snossel llit enin mp.. ew saw desoppus ot og rof roodtuo stoohs htiw ym noitaudarg nwog rehtegot.. sti neeb dekoob.. eht toohsotohp.. t'ndluoc enoptsop ti rehtie.. tog ot nruter eht nwog ydaerla.. dna i yllaer reven koot hcum sotohp htiw mih no noitaudarg yad flesti..eh tfel ylrae soc fo krow.. siht toohsotohp ygniht adnik tnaem a tol ot me.. tey ereht gnihton i nac od tba ti rehto naht ot eb a gnidnatsrednu dneirflrig..

For those of you in a relationship.. ever wondered why you love your other half? Ever thought of the kind of things that you'll do for him/her? ever considered how much sacrifice you are willing to make? Someone asked me this question today.. "ni wei ta fu chu le na me duo, will he do the same for you?"

I thought it was weird.. i somehow didnt consider this question after all that i went through.. at least in the recent months.. it didnt cross my mind.. i was stumped by the question for a while.. and my answer to that is.. im not expecting anything back.

I hope i'll get through the next 2 years in a twinkling of an eye.. It's gonna be a tough 2 years..

A tiring weekend.. body aching & a "new-born" student?

It's been a week since i last updated my blog..i had been really busy over the week and didnt get enough sleep almost every other day..

beginning of the week..

spent monday and tuesday getting over the fatigue that accumulated over the past weekend..

Teacher's day? It's MUM's birthday!

met up with michie and jac for last min shopping for graduation.. didnt manage to find anything to buy.. but had loads of sushi @ heeren.. the red plates were on 50% off!! Yum yum..*slurp* Bought mum a mango cake from the office.. WOw.. nice nice.. first time eating the mango cake.. hee.. Happy birthday mummy!!!

Manicure session..

Met up with michie for a manicure session at far east plaza.. rushed through a little shopping and bought myself a nice pair of black heels for my graduation.. *happy*

Finally graduating!! yeah!

started the day ironing my graduation gown.. and then the shirt that i wanted to wear.. wow.. felt so hot and frustrated..

waited for wei to come fetch me.. mum met wei for the first time.. this seemed to be the joke of the day.. oh well..

everything after that was a furry.. i left mum and wei at the atrium.. went to register and the next thing i know.. i was in the grand hall and havent had the time to tell wei what to do.. where to go..

heart was thumping when it was my turn to go up the stage.. i kept rehearsing in my head the procedures that i had to follow.. *breaking out in sweat*

before i know it.. it was over.. waited for the rest of the announcement of the names.. really LONG!! after the ceremony.. it was taking photos and photos and photos.. my jaw and face was really cramped from smiling too much.. and the heat.. killing me...

had dinner with mich,jon & jac in town after the event.. legs really sore from standing all day long..

ended the day at partyworld karaoke.. with wei and jac.. tiring tiring and tiring.. sent jac home before i got the chance to sleep... and i finally got my degree!!!

late!!

argh! late for work.. reached at 10.10am!! darn! someone turned off my alarm.. :( rushed to work...

was really tired.. but met up with pei & her friend, ellen for wakeboarding at raffles marina.. it's my first time trying to wakeboard.. but i managed to get on the board and stay on it for more than 10 seconds!! wow! im quite impressed at myself..

spent the rest of the day accompanying wei while he studied for his mid term test next week.. caught a midnight show.. the anacondas.. Hmm.. reminds me abt the sweet incident when i watched the first episode with wei.. that was 6 or 7 years ago.. i guess memories are always sweet.. :)

end of the week..

it's quite sad that the week came to an end so fast and that i have to work tomorrow.. i still have many things to do later.. but my body is aching all over.. and i spent the whole day doing project.. it's weird.. i just graduated.. but i spent the entire day in ngee ann getting so involved in wei's projects.. only managed to get home at 10.40pm.. so tiring and i wanted so much to collapse on the bed to sleep..