a search for character.. seeking meaning of life.. losing naivete in the process..

alone in the office..

its lunch time and everyone has gone for lunch except me, and my superior. I wish i could have gone out with the rest, but someone has to stay in the office and i brought food and so i stayed.

those of my msn list has been asking if im fine the whole morning. hehe. i'm feeling a little down.. to be exact.. "cheng sim" is the word to describe it. im also a little lost, not really sure what i should do to address a particular issue and im hoping it wont just turn from bad to worse to point of no return. i hope to salvage it, but it take 2 hands to clap and with only my efforts, i'll only get nowhere.

anyway, im still feeling cool! so no worries abt me. one of my ex-colleague who has worked here during her poly hols last semester is back here for her attachment. she has brought me so much laughter these days that nothing is going to get me down! hehe. it's just so fun having her ard and we seemed to belong to the same species, same mentality and totally full of crap. its people like her, that made me realise that i hadnt been really happy in a long while.. just laughing at the simple pleasures in life.. even a trip on the feeder bus leaves my tummy in ache from too much laughing.

where has the happy go lucky cherie went? i need to find her back. hehe.

was chatting with eric earlier on msn and he brought a smile to my face just sending me cute emoticons. simple things like this makes me smile.

i believe im a pretty simple girl in some aspects. bringing a smile to my face is really easy. i dont need a diamond to cheer me up. here are some of the ways to cheer me up..

1. give me a stalk of flower (sunflower, daisy, tulip or gerbera)
--> a stalk is sufficient to make my day.. see? so simple!
2. write me a personalised card with sincerity and sent via snail mail
--> i would be more touched if its sent by hand, without notifying me and giving me a surprise, but this wont work now coz my letterbox is locked. heh
3. send me a sweet sms or a wacky photo mms
4. tell me a really funny joke over msn
--> this will work only when i havent heard of the joke
5. send me little gifts in the mail, erm like a sweet (like michie's hand written tag-like note that im using as book mark now)
--> sincerity counts, no matter how small

oops. got to stop now. time for me to head for lunch. here's a song that's ringing in my head the whole morning..

SOMEBODY - Depache Mode

I want somebody to share
Share the rest of my life
Share my innermost thoughts
Know my intimate details
Someone who’ll stand by my side
And give me support
And in return
She’ll get my support
She will listen to me
When I want to speak
About the world we live in
And life in general
Though my views may be wrong
They may even be perverted
She’ll hear me out
And won’t easily be converted
To my way of thinking
In fact she’ll often disagree
But at the end of it all
She will understand me
Aaaahhhhh....

I want somebody who cares
For me passionately
With every thought and
With every breath
Someone who’ll help me see things
In a different light
All the things I detest
I will almost like
I don’t want to be tied
To anyone’s strings
I’m carefully trying to steer clear of
Those things
But when I’m asleep
I want somebody
Who will put their arms around me
And kiss me tenderly
Though things like this
Make me sick
In a case like this
I’ll get away with it
Aaaahhhhh....