a search for character.. seeking meaning of life.. losing naivete in the process..

I passed!

after much fretting and on the verge of freaking out, i rushed off to jap school immediately after work. was trying to cram all the readings into my brain while on the train, but there's a limit to how fast i can read and how much i can remember. met yee tat for a quick bite and sat down at mac to finish up the homework.

out of the 10 lessons that i had to study, i only cover 4 of them briefly. lessons 6 - 9. yee tat told me he covered 1 - 9 lessons and stayed home the last 2 days.. and i'm more freaked out.

headed for the test with clammy hands and increased heart beat rate. i was given a tiny piece of paper (a6 size) and a booklet of questions. sensei quickly explain the instructions in front of the booklet.. no writing on question booklet bla bla bla and we are supposed to start. it was 8pm and we are to stop at 8.30. almost couldnt believe my ears! the question booklet is at least 7-8 pages thick!?!

anyway, tried to read the instructions, but gave up after a while. too much hirigana and too slow my speed of reading those. decided to jump into the question and i stared hard. 1 minute after reading the 1st question, i'm still stumped. i cannot remember what "imasu" meant! stared at the answers and have no clue which is the correct one. stared at yeetat and mumbled, shit! i duno how to do the 1st qn! he mumbled living thing and pointed to the answers one by one and went, "non-living thing, non-living thing, non-living thing, living thing! that's the answer!"

i wouldnt say he was discreet in doing that. i think the whole class would have heard his speech. i was thankful tho that the sensei had his eyes closed and was listen to some music on his earphones. i gave yeetat a poke and went.. "Shhh!"

took yee tat's answer and went on to continue doing the rest of the questions, at 8.30pm, im almost done with the paper less those questions that i skipped coz i didnt know the answers. we were asked to stop, and i was pretty upset thinking that i wont have a chance to even try doing them. sensei seeing the looks on all our faces say that we can continue doing them later. it's time for listening comprehension. wow, i would say that's the hardest part of the whole test! it's like, the words just slip past that i didnt even have a chance to decipher them properly that i have to choose an answer already. turns out, i only got 1 question wrong out of 8 question.

was given yet another 15 mins to finish up our questions and i quickly made my best guess at those that i aint sure about. there's still some time and i'm too lazy to check my answers over, so yee tat and i went checking out each other's answers. Most of them tally in the beginning, i changed one of my answers and yee tat changed a couple, till we came to this section where our answers are almost different. we were arguing on our answers discreetly and yee tat decided that he shall leave his answers as it is when i insisted i'm right. anyway, time's up, and it's marking time.

I didnt know i'm supposed to mark my own paper tho. heh. sensei read out the answers and i happily tick those that i got correct and went "huh?" each time i got it wrong.

i am such an insensitive bitch. i was telling yee tat, "see? im right! I got 80 points!" and not realizing that he's prob feeling low that he didnt do so well after studying much more than me. on our way home, he was cursing that if he knew, he wouldnt have stayed home to study that much.. that was when it hit me that he's affected by my scores and the fact that i prob didnt study as much. Oops!

- smacks head -

insensitive me. as usual. never think before i shoot out my words. oh well, nothing much that i can do now huh?

came home and tried my hands on fixing up this tuna mixture. drain tuna from oil, add diced onions, add mayo, add salt, add lime (supposed to be lemon, but mum gave me lime juice telling me that's lemon juice! Grr..). sliced up a tomato and dump the paste on a cracker and its yummy! :P am going to bring that to the office!