a search for character.. seeking meaning of life.. losing naivete in the process..

slacking..

I havent been religiously updating my bloggie. As i found out recently, more people are reading my blog than i know it.

some of the people whom i dun know, have added me to their msn list.. and one of the latest is this person from holland. somehow, i feel weird knowing that someone from the other end of the globe is reading my blog too altho i often blog surf and read blogs from different parts of the world.

anyway, the week didnt really start off well for me. monday was a sucky day to have been warned abt my attitude in work, for being constantly late and slacking. altho im not the only person that got it, but i feel that everytime a comment abt something is being passed, it is directed at me. I had to admit it's all true, but obviously there are some underlying reasons for my behaviour. heh. I usually try to treat people the same way they treat me.

Anyway, the usual routine on monday is me rushing down to jap class but the last monday was quite special. i got a sms from yee tat early in the morning and he's gonna give me a treat for dinner! haha. how nice. he passed his ippt and was feeling happy and decided to give me a treat! so, we had dinner at thai express and i was busy copying his homework coz i was too tired to do over the weekend and forgotten all about it! ended up being late in class. :P

since the day wei has left for japan, i have only heard from him once, which was monday night at 2.30am in the morning. i was having fun in dreamland when my hp interrupted me and shook me awake. i couldnt really remember what i mumbled and what exactly he said. i was just too tired to think straight.

he's coming back tonight and i stayed up till almost 3am in the morning last night to wait for his call. He was supposed to feed me with the flight details. he didnt call. i was a little disappointed tho, and of coz.. really tired.

everyone has been asking me why i am happy yesterday (ref: my msn nick). I just wanted to be happy so decided to light up my day with a cheerful msn nick. of coz, it also helped that i had lunch with a hunk. Daniel, a friend whom i havent met for ages, but knew since the age of 16 dated me for lunch yesterday coz he was around the area. gawd, he turned so different and obviously has became much more good looking than i remembered him (for those who are interested, sorry! he's happily attached!). but that's not the point. the point is, i finally have a change of lunch venue and had a choice of eating something different. that, by itself is a refreshing change.

i skipped dinner and slept the evening away. I was prob too tired from the lack of sleep before and i suddenly find myself so short of time to myself.

the stress period in work is approaching. somehow, i seemed to dread most of the major festives now. with them coming, my workload will increase and im hardly breathing at work with mother's day coming.

my shoulders are aching terribly. i guess i didnt sleep well last night too. wei called me in the morning but the phone was cut off before i got all the details from him. now, i got to decide whether to head for T1 or T2 at the airport this evening coz he didnt even tell me what flight he's taking. sigh.

oh, my aunt in seattle just informed me that my smally uncle just arrived in seattle and he's gonna ride in our dream car. my dear uncle actually sent me an email from the airport to tell me that it's just so unbelievable and he's gonna email me the experience. we were breathing down their neck to buy that when we went car shopping in seattle and they eventually decided against it and bought a toyota matrix instead.. yes, u are reading it right. its not a hyundai matrix.

so, when my aunt told me abt buying my dream car.. i was filled with joy! to kill your suspense.. my dream car is the lexus rx330. We only have rx300 here in sing tho.

this is probably a really boring entry coz im just rattling off my thought and whatever that's popping into my mind. and i got to stop now.. being called in for another meeting. :(