a search for character.. seeking meaning of life.. losing naivete in the process..

yummy lunchie!

yesterday lunch was great. frederick whipped up a simple fare of caesar salad and sandwiches for the rest of us, which is totally really nice of him.

had mustard butter, bacon, ham, tomatoes, really thin egg slices, croutons, mushroom, prickles, walnuts and loads more. really yummylious by my standards and.. the caesar salad is good!

for his hardwork and the time spent preparing the meal.. here's some photos of the lunch we had..



and tomorrow.. it's my turn to bring something to the office.. it's gonna be a hakka dish, the abacus thingy.. "算盘子"? pardon me if the chinese is all wrong. you know, im not good at it. and no, im not cooking.. i dunno how to whip up this dish.. mum's gonna cook and it's just my duty to bring for the rest. hee..

gonna hope they like it! will grab some pictures tomorrow!!

Have you done this before?

started this at 9+.. finished it at 12+.. with interuptions in between by work. super lenghty lor! when i finished, i was like...phew! cant even be bothered to look through again, so please pardon all the typos!


200 things

01. Bought everyone in the pub a drink -no, im not rich enough and i dont drink!
02. Swam with wild dolphins
03. Climbed a mountain
04. Taken a Ferrari for a test drive
05. Been inside the Great Pyramid
06. Held a tarantula
07. Taken a candlelit bath with someone
08. Said "I love you" and meant it -> yes, definitely..
09. Hugged a tree -> yeah, i often do. i love taking photographs in weird poses..
10. Done a striptease -anyone willing to pay me a high price? i'll consider.. haha
11. Bungee jumped -would love to, if i ever had the chance..
12. Visited Paris -errmm.. i flew over the eiffel tower in an airplane.. the CDG airport is the nearest place i went?
13. Watched a lightning storm at sea -nah, but i would love to do it with someone beside me..
14. Stayed up all night long, and watch the sun rise
15. Seen the Northern Lights -pardon my ignorance, but what's that?
16. Gone to a huge sports game -doubt so, except all the nationals sports meets that i participated it in the past..
17. Walked the stairs to the top of the leaning Tower of Pisa -of coz..not!
18. Grown and eaten your own vegetables-my own's no. my grandma's..counted?
19. Touched an iceberg -woah.. i like, but no chance.. snow can?
20. Slept under the stars -> of coz, i love camping so much! and nature!
21. Changed a baby's diaper -cant remember.. dont think so..
22. Taken a trip in a hot air balloon -nah, i would love to!
23. Watched a meteor shower -attempted to watch, but not enough patience to wait.. hee
24. Gotten drunk on champagne
25. Given more than you can afford to charity
26. Looked up at the night sky through a telescope -> yeah, at nyp on the night of the meteor shower!
27. Had an uncontrollable giggling fit at the worst possible moment -> yeah, and it turned out real bad..
28. Had a food fight -> yeah, cake smashed all over the hair, face.. yucks!
29. Bet on a winning horse -never been into turf club with horses racing..
30. Taken a sick day when you're not ill -> haha. im good at this. ;)
31. Asked out a stranger -dun remember i did, but strangers asked me out..
32. Had a snowball fight -> yeah! and ouch! so painful!
33. Photocopied your bottom on the office photocopier -nope, only my hands and i gave it to my colleagues..
34. Screamed as loudly as you possibly can -> yuppers! i can scream real loud. st johns, sports meets, when fighting.. haha..
35. Held a lamb
36. Enacted a favorite fantasy
37. Taken a midnight skinny dip -tempted to try, but not in singapore definitely..
38. Taken an ice cold bath -> yeah, in the states during winter.. when the heater's not working!!
39. Had a meaningful conversation with a beggar
40. Seen a total eclipse -> didnt they broadcast it over the news when it happened? of cos i saw!
41. Ridden a roller coaster -> favourite! disneyland & universal studios! anaheim, japan, orlando..
42. Hit a home run
43. Fit three weeks miraculously into three days -> when i was playing final fantasy? didnt sleep a wink and played for 3 days!
44. Danced like a fool and not cared who was looking -> yeah, during the cheonging days.. i dun give a damn man!
45. Adopted an accent for an entire day
46. Visited the birthplace of your ancestors -Eeww, watching videos of my grandpa's visit frightens me..
47. Actually felt happy about your life, even for just a moment -> ya. some point of time in my life.. but not now..
48. Had two hard drives for your computer -> ya.. i have 3..
49. Visited all 50 states -i want to.. any sponser?
50. Loved your job for all accounts
51. Taken care of someone who was shit faced
52. Had enough money to be truly satisfied -> basically satisfied now, but who wouldnt want more?
53. Had amazing friends -> yap. there wouldnt be me without them!
54. Danced with a stranger in a foreign country -never had chance to dance in foreign country yet..
55. Watched wild whales -on national geographic! hahaha..
56. Stolen a sign -> yuppers! one of the transpassers signs at ubin.. together with yihui & gang. haha.
57. Backpacked in Europe -nope, only with a metro map and finding my way around madrid..
58. Taken a road-trip -> ya.. part of my life every year..
59. Rock climbing -> loved this. unforgettable.
60. Lied to foreign government's official in that country to avoid notice -> i think i did on my first trip to states.
61. Midnight walk on the beach -> yeah! long time ago..
62. Sky diving
63. Visited Ireland
64. Been heartbroken longer than you were actually in love -> yap. once in my life.. but the current love broke the record.
65. In a restaurant, sat at a stranger's table and had a meal with them -> ya, on the tour at japan!
66. Visited Japan -> yeah! nihon ichiban ne!
67. Benchpressed your own weight
68. Milked a cow
69. Alphabetized your records
70. Pretended to be a superhero
71. Sung karaoke -> definitely! but yeah, i sucks!
72. Lounged around in bed all day -> during my very down times..
73. Posed nude in front of strangers
74. Scuba diving
75. Got it on to "Let's Get It On" by Marvin Gaye
76. Kissed in the rain -don't remember eh?
77. Played in the mud -> tried mud bath before? it's Eewww.. but real fun!
78. Played in the rain -> yeah yeah.. im a mischievous kid.
79. Gone to a drive-in theater
80. Done something you should regret, but don't regret it -> ya, but im not telling what..
81. Visited the Great Wall of China
82. Discovered that someone who's not supposed to have known about your blog has discovered your blog -> yeah.. i realised, many people are reading it secretly. you, you and you.. own up!
83. Dropped Windows in favor of something better -i dropped apple computers for windows to survive in poly.. not the other way round..
84. Started a business -> online kind considered?
85. Fallen in love and not had your heart broken -> the physical heart was never broken.. hee.
86. Toured ancient sites -> ya, historical sites of some countries..
87. Taken a martial arts class
88. Swordfought for the honor of a woman
89. Played D&D for more than 6 hours straight
90. Gotten married
91. Been in a movie
92. Crashed a party -> yeah. im good at spoiling fun too.
93. Loved someone you shouldn't have -> ya. sometimes.. emotions arent easy to control..
94. Kissed someone so passionately it made them dizzy -> *grinz* =X
95. Gotten divorced
96. Had sex at the office -sounds exotic.. haha.. anyone tried before?
97. Gone without food for 5 days -no no.. im skinny enough..
98. Made cookies from scratch -> primary school days..
99. Won first prize in a costume contest
100. Ridden a gondola in Venice
101. Gotten a tattoo
102. Found that the texture of some materials can turn you on
103. Rafted the Snake River
104. Been on television news programs as an "expert"
105. Got flowers for no reason -> yeah. i love flowers!! *hint hint*
106. Masturbated in a public place
107. Got so drunk you don't remember anything
108. Been addicted to some form of illegal drug
109. Performed on stage -> kindergarten performance, chinese dance in sec school..
110. Been to Las Vegas -> yap yap! and won money on the one arm bandit! *grinning*
111. Recorded music
112. Eaten shark -> ya, but dont remember it to be extremely delicious.
113. Had a one-night stand ->*ahem* no!
114. Gone to Thailand -> yes yes! many times!
115. Seen Siouxsie live
116. Bought a house
117. Been in a combat zone
118. Buried one/both of your parents
119. Shaved or waxed your pubic hair off -> anyone wanna go for a brazilian with me?
120. Been on a cruise ship -> not those really huge ones.. but yes, from one state of japan to another..
121. Spoken more than one language fluently -> i guess i can be considered bilingual rite?
122. Gotten into a fight while attempting to defend someone -> yup, and reported into the principal's office thereafter.. in primary school..
123. Bounced a check -> yeah! i forgot and used the old cheque book instead of the new one!
124. Performed in Rocky Horror
125. Read - and understood - your credit report -no credit report to read..
126. Raised children -NO!!
127. Recently bought and played with a favorite childhood toy -no no..
128. Followed your favorite band/singer on tour
129. Created and named your own constellation of stars
130. Taken an exotic bicycle tour in a foreign country
131. Found out something significant that your ancestors did
132. Called or written your Congress person
133. Picked up and moved to another city to just start over
134. ... more than once?
135. Walked the Golden Gate Bridge
136. Sang loudly in the car, and didn't stop when you knew someone was looking -> yeah, with windows wind up tho.. hehe.
137. Had an abortion or your female partner did
138. Had plastic surgery
139. Survived an accident that you shouldn't have survived
140. Wrote articles for a large publication
141. Lost over 100 pounds
142. Held someone while they were having a seizure
143. Piloted an airplane
144. Petted a stingray -> yap, at seaworld in LA..
145. Broken someone's heart -> will i get bashed up if i say a few?
146. Helped an animal give birth
147. Been fired or laid off from a job
148. Won money on a T.V. game show
149. Broken a bone
150. Killed a human being
151. Gone on an African photo safari -> make believe african safari at florida disney world counted?
152. Ridden a motorcycle -> pillion counted?
153. Driven any land vehicle at a speed of greater than 100mph -> a speeding ticket, 6 demerit points + $150, counted?
154. Had a body part of yours below the neck pierced -> yeah, michie, me too.. fingernails!
155. Fired a rifle, shotgun, or pistol
156. Eaten mushrooms that were gathered in the wild
157. Ridden a horse
158. Had major surgery
159. Had sex on a moving train
160. Had a snake as a pet
161. Hiked to the bottom of the Grand Canyon
162. Slept through an entire flight: takeoff, flight, and landing -> yeah, i did!
163. Slept for more than 30 hours over the course of 48 hours -something that i admit i cant do!
164. Visited more foreign countries than U.S. states
165. Visited all 7 continents
166. Taken a canoe trip that lasted more than 2 days
167. Eaten kangaroo meat
168. Fallen in love at an ancient Mayan burial ground
169. Been a sperm or egg donor
170. Eaten sushi -> love it!
171. Had your picture in the newspaper
172. Had 2 (or more) healthy romantic relationships for over a year in your lifetime
173. Changed someone's mind about something you care deeply about
174. Gotten someone fired for their actions
175. Gone back to school -i wish i cld.. no $$!
176. Parasailed
177. Changed your name
178. Petted a cockroach -> yap. caught it, tortured it and swing it around with the feelers..
179. Eaten fried green tomatoes -never seen in my lifetime yet..
180. Read The Iliad
181. Selected one "important" author who you missed in school, and read
182. Dined in a restaurant and stolen silverware, plates, cups because your apartment needed them -> stolen yes, not for apartment tho. for fun and using it on the trip. hahaha
183. ... and gotten 86’ed from the restaurant because you did it so many times, they figured out it was you
184. Taught yourself an art from scratch
185. Killed and prepared an animal for eating
186. Apologized to someone years after inflicting the hurt -> qx.. is this a yes?
187. Skipped all your school reunions
188. Communicated with someone without sharing a common spoken language -> ya, not many people in spain know english and i cant speak spanish..
189. Been elected to public office
190. Written your own computer language
191. Thought to yourself that you're living your dream
192. Had to put someone you love into hospice care
193. Built your own PC from parts -> i did! with some reading and help..
194. Sold your own artwork to someone who didn't know you
195. Had a booth at a street fair -> a stall at stadium cove.. is that a street fair?
196: Dyed your hair -> do i even need to answer?
197: Been a DJ
198: Found out someone was going to dump you via LiveJournal
199: Written your own role playing game
200: Been arrested -> yes. sad to say.. haha..

monday blues..

it's the dreaded monday again! the weekend passed by real fast. not going to say much since im at work. enjoy the pictures as they tell you stories..




whee.. im looking forward to jap lessons tonight.. hopefully i wont be dead beat right after.. wish everyone have a good week ahead.. ;)

bored..

wei's at class.. and im totally lost. I have to fetch him for his class later and in between, i cant find anyone to do anything with. everyone seemed to be occupied. so, here i am.. blogging from the comfort of wei's room and waiting for time to pass so that i can go fetch him.

and oh.. i need to go find a present later as well. wei's nephew is turning 1 month today! gonna see the cute little baby later.

i have been posting blog entries in my livejournal recently. am beginging to enjoy using livejournal since i can control the readership of my posts and keep those sensitive issues at bay.

wonder if i should make the switch, but i really prefered blogspot for it's customization. sigh..

i seemed to get myself into more trouble it seems.. and now, i need to figure how to get out of this rut before it snowballs into a big bomb and explodes on me.

someone finally clapped his hands after i finished singing a song at the karaoke yesterday. haha. made me happy like hell.. and motivated me.

oh, didnt i mention i really sucks in singing? no one really pay attention when i start singing for the fact that i cant really sing.. and will attract more negative comments than clapping the moment i start singing.

and, i KNOW i cant sing for nuts, and the person that clapped definitely motivated me, even though he might not even know this. i never mentioned this before.. but it really sucks when i try to sing and have people put me down. and a lot of my friends seemed to be doing that (and even tho i know they only meant to tease me).. it hurts.. tho i never show it. it makes me feel like shit.. feel so down for not being even on par.. and it doesnt help when wei's such a good singer.. so good that he's always the center of attention in karaokes. and i really meant ALWAYS.

and there i am fading in the background.. lost in everyone's else singing. that's prob the reason why i'm always extremely quiet in a karaoke as compared to a dinner date or some other activities. as much as i try hard to learn to be better and heed wei's comments.. it somehow backfires.. i feel extremely tensed up each time i step into karaokes. like being pressured to perform. and i crack under the pressure.

and okie, before i kena whack by others.. there are also very nice people who encourages me to sing.. and make me feel totally at ease. they, for a fact, goes to karaoke to let of steam, and anyhow sing and they dont give a damn if i sang in the wrong key or cant read the lyrics. they laugh it off as fun and i really appreciate them for making me feel this way.. makes me wanna hang out with them more often and just be myself..

the radio is playing so much of the superstar Chen Wei Lian's 童话 today. i heard it at least 3 times. and i didnt even hear kelly's song. or did i happen to miss it everytime? i think he's gonna get the superstar title for sure. and personally, i think, he has more marketing value than anyone of the superstar. at least, that's how i see it. just under a week to find out if im right.

the time ticks by so slowly. and the living room just started flashing non stop for 10 secs while wei's mum is in the bathroom. eerie. heh.

gonna read a book and maybe snooze a little more before fetching wei in 2 hours. hope everyone have a great weekend!

neurotic?!?

saw this as weiyi's bloggie..


You are a neurotransmitter. You believe in the
good-naturedness of man's biology and soul.
You're happy, everyone's happy, and no one will
ever take that away from you. Or else you'll
make them go insane.


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a tad blue? a little still..

i havent been blogging anything significant lately. there hasnt been much exciting news abt my life either. i'm still searching for a rainbow to inject my life with energy.. and that rainbow has to come within me.

i have been unduly worried late last week. and all that incessant worrying has come to a naught. and so, my life isnt gonna change afterall and everything just falls back to where it is. i heave a sigh of relief as i start to reflect on the incident and learn from it. it was a valuable experience afterall.

i tried packing my room a little and rounding up the old clothes to be thrown or given away. halfway into the exercise and im itching all over. my eczema is flaring up all over my legs.. and i scratched a little here and there.. now, it's gotten worst and slightly swollen. shucks. what have i done man... but it's really torturing me!

i wish i could make my life a little more exciting by packing it with dinners and activities after work, but i am so darn broke that i havent got a single clue on how i am going to survive till pay day. in the midst of this, someone told me something today. something that i wasnt looking forward to, but expected. and so, it's seems pretty sure now...

it hasnt thrown me into a frenzy, and i'll do my work all the same. with the same amount of dedication, if not more. at the same time, looks like i got to open up my options and start looking around huh? not that it hasnt been in my agenda, but i was just postponing it. there are also other issues that tug at my heartstrings. sigh. no perfect senario to anything right? take a step and walk a day. and i'll learn as i walk.

i posted a locked entry on livejournal. it's not a frequent thing that i decided to post an entry there and not here, so it's actually quite sacred. just a little sensitive stuff but those existing in my friends list get to read it anyway.. let me what ya think, ya? thanks...

blue..

im so lethargic and i feel myself drifting into dreamland ever so often. it's hard to resist the urge especially when the office is so quiet.

im getting migraine a tad too often. it's killing me slowly over the last few hours. i stared into the mirror in the toilet earlier and i think have aged. too many late nights watching the jap cartoons. and my eye bags are all showing!!

the weekend was a relaxing one. didnt really go anywhere.. just relaxed and laze. something that i havent done in a long while. simple pleasure of life eh?

for once, i dont have to worry abt being really tired tonight. jap class is being cancelled. hee.. so i can head home, and read a good book. or maybe, i should clean up my room.

torture..

time always tick by slowing when u are hoping the day will be over soon. but when u least expects it, it slips past without informing you and hits you before you realise it. today is one of those really slow day for me.. despite having loads to do, but here i am, constantly in a daze.

my heart is heavy and my mind filled with worries. im constantly going through the different scenarios that will happen to me. replaying them over and over again in my little head. no one saw through my unusual self today.. and i tried hard to act normal to prevent any probing. i suddenly feel so alone. despite having loads of friends throwing concern over me, some things are just meant to be dealth with alone. for those of you who have expressed their concerns, thanks. i am touched with the care and concern, but for now.. i just want to be alone and sort things out.

and i'm wishing for the clock to tick faster. i want to go home.

long awaited..

been wanting to blog for the past few days. too busy, too tired, no time to spare, no mood, all sorts of conditions that stopped me from blogging.

headed for dinner with yihui & jiahui. the 3 of us were reminiscing abt the past. about school. the people we know there.. and yes, gossip gossip gossip. what else can girls do when they get together? and it trailed off to the topic of results, the subjects and the degree of distinctions (DOD)..

the discussion went off with us discussing if our dods are valuable.. since 3/4 of ur class got it.. touched on the competitiveness of the classmates and the 'kiasuism' spirit that was constantly felt.. and yihui told me something that i didnt know about. that our class made the history in sim. being the 1st B class to get better results than the usual A class students.. and the first time the top student was from B class.. who is a double award winner (specialization and overall).. and being the first batch of B class students grabbing so much DODs that almost the whole class got it? and it got me thinking that my class was indeed a cool bunch.. even tho i was constantly cursing at their competitiveness against the classmates while i was back in school.

it just felt really good to be talking abt the past. it's been almost 2 years ago. time really flies man. i wish, i could be back in school in this instance.



i had a really belated birthday dinner session with raphael & victor + gf (karine) tonight at newton. somehow, it wasnt as fun. i guess tohtoh wasnt around to fuel the laughter and our jokes were more decent since karine was ard. hee. but still, thankful of the guys for forking out the time for the dinner. appreciate it loads man! *wink*

i have been wondering abt something in the last few days.. got me all puzzled up and wondering what went wrong. and now, i suddenly realised that i might have caught myself in a situation that i never wanted and never thought i would be in. im kinda crushed. a little loss, a little worried. will i be able to go through it? will things still remain the same? is my life going to change from this point onwards? what will my decision be? fuck man. i really don't know. and i don't feel like sharing with anyone yet. maybe only my orangey little old dog. stress is begining to mount within me. *sobs*

ouch!

i wanted to blog yesterday. it's been an eventful day and yet, after doing a self mani and pedicure, i totally konked out with the computer on while waiting for my nails to dry.

didnt have my alarm set, and i woke this morning with a cracking head. i just wish i didnt have to head off for work. and i was really late.

the office was turned into a sauna yesterday. i was in 2 black tops and my pants was sticking to my butt. the guys here have all their shirt soaked in sweat. it was really bad and the air con technicians took the whole afternoon to repair the thing. the worst part was it was extremely stuffy and the aircon was giving out hot air. by the time they were done.. it was ah hr to knock off time.

was reading abt sally's bloggie abt the myth on perfumes.. i didnt know about that.. maybe vaguely heard before but didnt pay attention to since im hardly superstitious. but i remember receiving loads of perfumes from people and giving many bottles to wei.. and we are all still on talking terms. so, my advice to all is.. dun be too taboo about it. relationships/friendship takes 2 hands to clap and it requires an effort on both parties to maintain it. dun blame it on the perfume when things don't work out.

and oh sally, abt a taboo to share.. you heard about the one on slippers/shoes? Cannot give slippers/shoes to your partner cos they will run away? or something like that? it's something i dont believe in either. heee..

i'm in a dilemma now. i need to sign the new employment contract by today. i need to think abt it in the next few hours.. and my little cracking head that is intensely hurting at the moment doesnt seemed to help.

it's time to engage myself in the daily routine of clearing work.

loads on my mind..

wei seemed to be really down. not sure what has happened to him in terms of work. he didnt say much, but the tone of his voice practically sucked all the cheerfulness out of me also.

-big sigh-

much has happened over the last 2 days. something else is bogging me down also. something that i didnt think will happen seemed to be happening. maybe something that i did triggered it, but it wasnt my intention for it to happen. i cant be sure, since i cant confirm it myself based on my judgement. now i just hope that the friendship wont change or that i wont lose a friend.

i guess there's nothing much for me to do at this point of time, other than just being myself. i hope my friend can sort it out too. i hope it's not too naive for me to think that things will be the same as before.

michie!!! now you are the only person i can look for support.. cos only you know.... help me! ;)

blabbering..

i think it's time to smash my aircon apart. it woke me up with the same cranking noises like the night before. this time at 5+ in the morning and sleep after that was minimal. not sure how long i can survive that. too broke to have the aircon changed.

michie's gonna be away in bkk again early next week.. awww.. envy her man. i wish i can fly as well.

im feeling bored at work. not that there arent things to do.. in fact, there's a whole lot of things waiting to be done.. but im just feeling lethargic. and both jean and jasmine are on medical leave today! -sobs-

it's friday.. and im glad.. but the moment i think abt working tomorrow.. i get so demoralised again. :(

Oh gosh! i just got a call from jasmine. she's on 2 days mc. doc say she has got really high blood pressure. kinda worried for her. hope that she'll get well soon..

time to get my stuff done. will update when i have the time!

unwell..

it's been a while since i blogged. nothing significant for me to mention here these days.. i have been feeling down too. too much high and it seems that it's time for some down period.

i had terrible dizzy spells this morning. so much that i lazed in bed for 45 mins, debating if i should declare mc. my head hurts too. i think it's attributed to the fact that i didnt sleep well last nite.

i start thinking how ironic things are for me. almost every other night, i sleep late and complain about being tired when i wake, when i'm at work.. i went to bed so early (at 12+am, much earlier as compared to my usual sleeping hrs) last night, hoping for much need rest and i ended up tossing and turning in bed the whole night.

the aircon started giving out cranking noises at abt 3am. woke me up and i had to switch off the aircon coz i didnt know what was wrong. it was hot, turned on the fan but i was too disturbed by the fact that it was much noiser. couldnt sleep. got frustrated and switched off the fan and decided to sleep without any air blowing, but i was sweating and feeling really uncomfortable. and so, i woke this morning, feeling that i havent slept a wink.

wei seemed to be mad with me last night. *sigh* one can never seemed to please everyone eh?

met up with remy (tp eng) for dinner last nite at bishan. nothing much, just bits of crapping and catching up with each other.. havent seen him since the last time we played billard and pool years back. it was fun. sometimes, it is through meetings like this, that trigger memories hidden in the depths of your mind.

photos galore..

it's a bloody hot night. im sitting here, right in front of my computer and sweating like a pig. feel like im in a sauna..

the weekend has been fun. and i finally gotten the rest of the photos for the kelong. i kept forgetting to get it from wei. here's the pictures!!




the lunch with the girls has been filled with laughter. it's been a pity that joycelyn couldnt join us last min. anyway, we had a filling lunch at ichiban..



the shopping that ensued left me at least 150 bucks poorer.. and i cant imagine that i actually spent 400 bucks in the last 2 days. really shit man. i got to scrimp and stay home for the rest of the month.

anyway, the shopping was really fun and i was so happy that i just swipe and swipe on my card without realising the amt i spent.. i must be feeling real high on shopping. and some sales assistant actually mistook jasmine for my mum. hahaha.. super funny.. and i played along and shouted "mummy" in the shop to catch her attention. heh heh. now jasmine has got 3 daughters. joycelyn, vanessa and me!

met wenjing and the rest of the girls to celebrate her bday.. headed for kbox.. and we got such a BIG room cos ivy knew the staff there. there were only 8 of us, but the room can seat up to at least 40! didnt take much photos.. busy singing, playing dice, drinking and having fun..



oh gosh.. i better get to bed.. didnt realise its so late already. good nite world.

yawns...

my brows are wrinkled. im feeling lethargic. feeling groggy after being woken up by my ringing phone. im so tired!

wei just called and told me that one of his now project mates was my ex marcom mate in tp. small world.

it seems that i cant even hold my attention span together to read a book. not even a page into reading and i dozed off. too tired? i dunno. i seemed to sleep a lot recently, but it never seemed enough. where has the energetic rabbit in me gone to? i doze in the bus, in the train, while watching tv program last night, while trying to read a book just now. what is wrong with me??

am i too stressed up at work? am i using too much of my brain without realising it? im constantly having work bugging me at the back of my head. how best should i do this? how best can i do that? it's like a constant subconscious troubleshooting session going on.. maybe im not too used to gearing up on work after such a long period of rest.

i told an old friend a secret today. it came as a surprise to him i guess. a pleasant surprise i hope. the secret was with me for the past 6 years. something that i don't remember telling many people. prob. 1 or 2? anyway, it's been such a long time.. i dont see any harm revealing it. i just hope it wont spoil the friendship or alter the friendship in any way.

it's the weekend again. and im beginning to hate working on saturdays, but there's loads to be done so i cant complain this weekend. i just cant believe that the week whizzes past so fast. or am i too slow to catch up with it?

going for a lunch date with jasmine, jean and joycelyn again after work tomorrow. oh, i forgot! and vanessa! whee! im looking forward to the fun we are gonna have.. will take pictures! i hope. i keep forgetting to fish out my cammie. like the dinner date i had with mich and jac.. i totally forgot abt it till i was in the train home. urgh!

and oh, please dun ask me what secret.. for the whole night.. everyone is asking me already. and no, im not saying.. unless u are the friend that im talking abt. hee. heading for bed.. mr. sandman, here i come!

happy birthday to me..

i'm older now. how sad. but i feel the same still. young at heart. u can say im childish, but that's the way i am. my personality! heh.

anyway, thanks to those who has sent their well wishes even before the clock strike 12am last nite. appreciate it loads.. and those who sent mms to entertain me too. as well as those who msg me at 5+ & 6+ in the morning.. wishing me while im in the midst of my dreams..

and for the first 3 hrs at work today.. my hp was beeping non stop.. and i was replying sms till my hand almost cramped. im not joking, it's like a flood. all coming in at one go. and from people that i have least expected to hear from. really appreciate your thoughts of remembering. thanks so much.

mich has been such a sweet thing. she made me a banner on her lj. it's so sweet that it melted my heart. the banner has all the elements that were close to my heart.. and i had to show it on my blog as well.


thanks mich, for the friendship you have showered on me thus far, all the advice and struggles we went thru. thank you for shaping a part of my life.

i had a very tiring day. my eyes are fighting to close. and i did a simple collage of the photos taken today. here they are..




turning in now. losing the battle with Zzz monster.

joke of the day..

a new week unfolds.. and i was rather surprised by many. my handphone was "meh-ing" away the whole time in the office today. for those who didnt know, my sms tone was that of a goat "meh-ing" and it goes.. "meh... meh... meh.. meh.."

and the smses freaked me out. the first one came, then another, and another.. mostly contain the same message said in different ways.. from my primary school friend.. my ex colleague.. my poly school mates.. my uni classmate. and some people that im not very close to. and im pretty sure all these people don't know each other.

all of them wished me happy birthday. the first one came and i thought.. did she remember wrongly? anyway, i said thanks and didnt want to embarass her. the second one came and i got puzzled. the third came and im confused. and so, i decided to ask how they knew it was my bday. and so.. i got the answer. friendster.

so.. i logged into friendster and realised i had a long list of unread messages.. from my cousin.. my sec school friends.. pri school friends. and the same msg. oh god, im getting delirious.

so.. i went to check my friendster profile and saw it set as 1 aug. i think i purposely set it as that when i created the account thinking it wouldnt be important. and now.. it became a joke on myself. and yes, i had it changed already.

anyway.. wei popped over to kovan to have dinner with me before my jap class. kinda thrilled to see him and was relishing abt the joke i created on myself to him. and something he said hit me.

the statement was.. "now u know who your true friends really are.."

and i got a present from yee tat. and no, he wasnt one of those that messaged me. thanks for the pressie. i like it.

and so.. according to yee tat.. he told me he received an email reminder from friendster informing him about my birthday. and i believe, that all the 200+ people in my friendster network would have received the same email. the email got yee tat a little confused, but he wasnt taken into the email reminder and relied on his instincts.

appreciate those who have smsed. thanks for your thoughts and well-wishes, tho it's REALLY NOT my birthday today. it's the thought that counts..

but on the other hand.. friends whom i tot i was pretty close to sms me as well. i was like going.. "duhz!!" u mean u really forgot when my birthday was? i was taken aback when i receive those sms, not to mention.. a tang of disappointment.

this incident also hit me. that those who were really close to me didnt sms me at all. and i believe that they would have received those email reminders from friendster. it made me realise that they are truely my close friends.. or friends who have cared enough to remember.

thanks people. i know who u are.. u know who u are. and it is these same people who really knows me well. went through loads with me and cared to remember my birthday as i cared to remember theirs. thanks pals.

raf - if u are reading this.. i'm still waiting for your reply on the newton dinner date. i wanna gorge and talk cork with you guys man. missed doing it. it was so much fun.

and it so happen that i realised later today that my whole week is actually packed. with the exception of tomorrow. still waiting for raf's reply. if not, then i'll prob meet zelia and freddy for a kopi catch up session.

it's time again to catch some sleep. i have been waking really early these days ever since the changes in my office took place. good nite people. :)

pleasant weekend..

had a shopping spree yesterday. as usual, shopping sprees thrill me. i just love swiping my card. heh.

i set out to buy myself an expensive present to pamper myself. something that i would hardly think of buying in my daily course of life. and i dragged wei along to look at it. despite wei telling me abt all the disadvantages of the item.. i insisted on buying. and the good thing was he paid for it eventually. heh heh. so sweet of him right? but he ended up being $220 poorer.

i didnt spend a lot of money in the end. wei will stop me from impulse buying and save me loads of money.

im kinda sad after the shopping spree yesterday. i was trying on levis jeans and i asked for size 25. omg! i cant even button up!! i feel so much like a "ba zhang" being wrapped up tightly. it means im growing very fat.. and very fast indeed!

anyway, im eyeing on this square cut levis jeans "eve". that was the only pair that i looked better in. the rest, i think i got to opt for size 26. how sad. and i refuse to even try on size 26. it's time to lose some fats. maybe i'll buy it the next time i pop by a levis store.

i forsee a packed week ahead, but im not too sure about how the schedule will be. for now, today, wednesday and thursday is filled. may this week be filled with fun! it's time to concentrate on my work..