a search for character.. seeking meaning of life.. losing naivete in the process..

Hectic day..

It's a busy day at work and i had to work OT.. till 8+ in the night.. darn.. was supposed to go home to get ready for the trip tomorrow.. Rushed home and received a call from wei moments later.. meeting friends for snooker for the night.. Havent packed my stuff yet.. havent had dinner.. havent managed my auctions.. so many things undone and wei is on his way to fetch me.. oh gawd..

Took a bag and dumped in all the things that i thought i would need for the trip.. and within half an hour, am out of the house and heading for dinner.. Getting excited for the trip.. Hee.. *grinz*

Bummed out..

I know i have been neglecting my blog. I haven't had the time to put up anything other than the quizzes and the article.

I have been so tired during the whole week!!

Came home on tuesday wanting to write my blog and spend some time with mum.. but i simply konked out the moment i got home.. i didnt even have dinner.. just slept all the way.. woke up around midnight and then went back to sleep abt an hour later..

Work on wednesday was normal.. more scanning of photos.. i wonder when i'll ever get them done.. *struggling* Met up with raphael and victor for dinner.. Need to get the camera from raphael for the bintan trip..

Work on thursday is pretty much the same.. except for a 2 hour meeting with Mr J.. hitched a ride from Azelia's bf to town.. met up with jac for dinner.. wei happened to be at his office so we had dinner together.. Shopped a bit in far east and decided to pop into a salon for a hair cut. Trim away all my troubles.. :)

Feel quite apologetic to jac coz didnt really shopped much since i kinda rushed into the salon for the cut. Hey girl, thanks for meeting up.. tho it may be short.. but shopping with you is always fun.. We shall go try that omelette thingy some day k!

Feeling Stress??

Came across this article and thought it's great as a reference.. for those who are feeling stress from work or school... here's how to make yourself feel better..

Take five and de-stress
Beat stress and stay healthy, says Andre Cheong.

The easiest way to preduce stress is to lower your ambitions, expectations and standards. But that should not be the solution. Most people want to excel in life. And excellence requires challenging yourself. Challenges involve stress.

Over the years, i have witnessed how high-flying executives have fallen victim to stress-related medical problems, some of which are short-term while others are more servere.

Either way, how can we keep our momentum going yet reduce the health risks? The following are some useful suggestions:

Regular Exercise
Studies show that regular exercise strengthens your heart and immune system and makes you better able to fight off the health problems that usually come with a stressful life.

Talk it out
When things get tough, remind yourself that things could be worse and spend some time formally counting your blessings. Say them out loud or write them down.

If you are worried about the future, imagine the worst possible senario and find a way to be at peace with that. Then figure out a "Plan B". Remind yourself that when you get through your current problem, it won't seem so bad. Tell yourself that this is a chance to prove to yourself and the rest of the world that you are a survivor.

Learn from low-stress people
If you are a Type-A personality or are highly ambitious, observe how low-stress people handle difficult situations. Their reaction might seem disturbingly placid at first. But imagine how they would react when you are feeling stressed and try to follow their example.

Have a hobby
An activity outside your work can enrich your life and be a stess-reducer. Among my hobbies are scuba diving and tennis. Although i am not a very good diver or tennis player, i feel relaxed when i go swimming or am running after the little green ball.

Get a pet
I have a cat, Rachel, that behaves almost like a dog. She is one of the most effective stress relievers for me. If you don't like animals, try making a date with nature or pay more attention to nature. It will do wonders for your psyche.

Recent research suggests that flora and fauna have a way of giving positive charges to the human body, and taking away the negative effects of stress on us.

So, pay attention to your mental needs. A mind that is healthy will facilitate healthy living. A mind that is broken will take a long time to mend.

Article contributed by Andre Cheong, regional director of the PSD Group (Asia-Pacific). The PSD Group, an international executive search organisation listed on the London Stock Exchange, has worldwide offices covering specialist markets in telecommunications, consumer, electronics, banking, finance and IT services. E-mail: andre.cheong@psdgroup.com Website: www.psdgroup.com This article first appeared in ST Recruit on July 25, 2004.

another quizzy..

Cor blimey, I taste like Tea. I am a subtle flavour, quiet and polite, gentle, almost ambient. My presence in crowds will often go unnoticed. Best not to spill me on your clothes though, I can leave a nasty stain. What Flavour Are You?

Fruitti Tutti..

Take the What Fruit Are You? test by Ellen!

Oh Gawd.. Mouthwash anyone??

If I were a hygiene product, I'd be

Click here to find out which hygiene product you'd be at BRAINPUKE.COM!

Photos..

Got the photos of the outlet opening last friday from jac already.. here are some of the photos that were shot.. the rest are with my colleague.. waiting for him to send it to me...

Lord of the rings...

Chance upon this test in michie's blog.. took it and at least i'm a female!! hee.. ;)

Eowyn If I were a character in The Lord of the Rings, I would be Eowyn, Woman of Rohan, niece of King Theoden and sister of Eomer. In the movie, I am played by Miranda Otto. Who would you be? Zovakware Lord of the Rings Test with Perseus Web Survey Software

Rays of sunshine..

took a walk with Azelia during lunch around the office vicinity soaking and baking in the sunshine.. I need some to brighten up my day.. as we walked.. we chatted.. about the stuff in the office.. our work.. our deadlines.. things that bothered us..

its was definitely relaxing to be strolling right after a meal.. and it has definitely cheered me up a little.. I think i'll be doing this more often since that it's aint good to be seated down all the time right after a lunch or something..

had dinner with Raphael & victor @ sakae in sembawang shopping centre.. headed straight home after dinner coz i was so tired and so was everyone else..

mum came home today.. i'm hoping to eat some home-cooked food tomorrow.. *grinz*

got to go iron some clothes for work and turn in early..

Which delicious Sweet Baked Good Am I?

Which Delicious Sweet Baked Good Are You?
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A day without sunshine..

i feel like a puctured tyre.. feel so restless.. dont wanna do anything.. trying to search for my self worth.. who am i? It's been a some time since i felt this way.. i cant seemed to bring myself to smile.. to laugh at myself.. to poke fun of others.. to remain my usual mischievious personality with a cheeky grin..

the sun no longer brightens my day.. the chirping of the birds aint cheerful anymore.. they seemed to be singing a dull song.. all the cute things on my desk aint so cute anymore.. and no.. i'm not at the time of the month where everything is sucky.. I dunno why.. i wanna escape.. to a place where no one knows me.. to be alone..

The imperfect me..

my cranky mood these days is getting me into a lot of trouble with wei.. the weekend hasnt been exactly pleasant.. i guess im getting less and less perfect by the day.. No one is perfect, and i'm trying to face my imperfections.. and maybe, overcome them..here are some of my imperfections..

the complain queen
someone highlighted to me that i'm a good complain queen.. i complain everyday.. i complain about everything.. i complain at some of the people that irritates me.. i complain about my job.. i complain about being kept waiting.. i complain about being broke.. i complain about not having a new phone.. i complain at other's friends.. i complain about a wedding.. i complain & complain...i complain about EVERYTHING.

the petty me
i was told that i am petty.. i get angry easily and i dont bother to hide my expressions... (i'm definitely NOT a good actress in this area) i affect people around me with my so-called BLACK face.. i seemed to ruin the atmosphere all the time.. i seemed to dampen people's spirits most of the time.. i am not popular..

the tactless me
i'm not tactful when talking with people.. sometimes, i shoot the wrong things off my mouth and hurt people's feelings... i would rattle on and on on a topic and be oblivious to the people around me.. especially their expressions...i hurt people without myself realising.. i say the wrong things at the wrong time..

the incosiderate me
i dont give a damn to people's feelings.. i just want it MY way.. i want it means i want it.. NOW means NOW.. i DONT CARE..

the bad-tempered me
i am very bad tempered.. catch me at the wrong time.. u'll be in shit. i am really nasty to the people that offend me.. be it purposely or unpurposely.. i am not forgiving and equipped with pettiness.. you better get out of my way...

the childish me
i refuse to grow up.. i act like a kid.. i throw tantrums.. i need to bring my tattered orange plush doggy with me everywhere.. i pout.. i cry.. i want to remain a kid..

the late queen
i'm late for work almost every other day.. 10 mins a day is a lot when accumulated over a year.. i wake early.. but i stone a lot.. i take my own sweet time.. i dont care even tho i know i wont catch the early bus..

i'm sure that i have many many more imperfections that aren't listed here.. i'm too tired to think.. just came back from a chalet.. and i got to wake in 4+hours time.. feeling so shitty.. feel like crying.. i feel so bewildered.. i cant control my surroundings.. i cant make them the way i want it to be.. im abt to breakdown..

anyway, please let me know if you know of anymore of my imperfections.. i'm gladly add them on into my current list.. take it as a friendster bad testimonial thingy.. please.. enlighten me..

Sleepless & tiring weekend..

was so shack in the office today.. slept for only 2 hours the night before.. went karaoke and came home really late. it was a really wet morning and it's quite upsetting not being able to stay in bed longer..

i stoned the hours away in the office and was feeling quite cranky.. Azelia didnt dare to talk to me.. hee.. came back home in the afternoon after lunch and tried to do my auctions and some other stuff but was so tired that i almost dozed off in front of my computer.. couldnt take a nap coz i was supposed to be going to this wedding dinner later in the evening..

decided to pop by my cousin's house (2 blks away) to have a quick mahjong session.. that proved to be a BAD decision.. coz i was so suay that i kept losing.. :(

Headed down to the wedding dinner and i was so pissed with everything.. people rushing me and then left me waiting for 2 hours.. quite pissed and annoyed.. especially when i didnt really like the groom much.. went coz wei was one of the "brothers" of the groom.. food was bad.. the place is cramped.. i cant see a single thing of the powerpoint slide.. i cant hear clearly what the MC is saying.. i was SO bored and upset that i wanted to walk out of the dinner..

my face was black.. and i didnt give a damn to the people around me.. im so tired.. everything was a blur.. more waiting.. falling asleep.. but i had to drive wei's friends home.. to toa payoh.. then to serangoon.. then to seng kang... then wei's sister called.. something happened.. the seng kang guy didnt alight.. had to rush to serangoon garden.. more waiting.. abt 1.5hrs later.. finally left the pub i was in.. my eyes was so painful from all the smoke that i'm tearing.. feel so uncomfortable.. so weary from the lack of sleep.. feeling myself getting sick...

got back into car.. sent guy to seng kang.. sent wei's sister back to sembawang.. then finally.. drive wei and myself back to ang mo kio.. my mood was REALLY bad..

so tired that i brushed my teeth and collapsed before wei could finish bathing..

Wish List

If you have been following my blog.. i have added something new to it.. Inspired by jac, i have decided to add this "wish list" thingy into my blog.. i just remembered that my bdae is hopping near.. Hee..

Many of the items listed is part of my dream shopping list.. but i need to scrimp and save in order to buy.. someday.. they'll all be in my bag.. Hee.. Looking forward to that day..

Other things are meant to be a HINT to SOMEBODY.. hopefully that SOMEBODY will get the hint when he reads it.. (i dont even know if he does..) If you think you are not that SOMEBODY, then please don't do anything or act upon my wish list.. it's aint going to be the same even if i receive it. Its not the item that counts.. its the GIVER that's important..

New outlet opening at Plaza Sing, B2

it's an exciting day. Went office to prepare all the last min stuff for the opening later in the afternoon..

Spent the whole day in plaza sing distributing fliers.. darn.. it's so demoralising when people simply refused to take the fliers.. Went to olympus service centre to repair my camera after that and i was quoted $210 for repairing the camera! *sob* that's way too high a price.. i think it's time i should start looking out for a new camera.. but i'm so broke.. and i need it so urgently.. anyone interested in donating one to me??

Anyway, dear old jac.. she came to plaza sing to look for me today and she's so nice to present me with a little pressie.. Hee.. Girl.. thanks for thought and the pressie is sitting on my office table already.. so me.. strawberry & pink.. *grinz* She also came to my rescue with an external xd card reader for me to upload my photos.. but the sad thing is.. i cant seemed to use it.. stupid computer doesnt detect the thing.. dunno why.. something, somewhere is wrong.. was so tired and frustrated that i decided to try some other day...

Happiness to depression... *sob*

came home today feel more relaxed than i have been in the past week.. wanted to upload all the photos that i took over the weekend and i realised my camera is FAULTY!!! i cant even switch the camera on.. and i dont have a xd card reader to upload my photos!!! *sob* really upset.. This has to happen NOW.. when i'm abt to go on a trip to bintan to celebrate the occasion of me growing older.. *argh! i do hope i can have it fixed before the trip.. not much time left.. especially when i'm not exactly free to go to the service centre.. *sigh*

anyway, angie the choice is going to have a new outlet opening tomorrow @ plaza sing.. to those who are atc's cake lovers or durian/mango rolls lovers.. please hop down there.. it's at b2. there's gonna be a storewide 20% promotion!! hurry!!

Sickie girl & rush against time..

I havent been updating my blog recently.. Main reason was coz i was so busy at work preparing for a new outlet opening at Plaza Sing this friday.. and on top of that, being sick with a 38.3 degree fever.. think i ate something wrong.. i vomitted at work on tuesday.. havent had enough rest as yet, havent been sleeping well.. too much work.. too little time.. stupid computer at work.. too slow and too little memory to run my programs!! so frustrating..

There are some photos that i took over the weekend.. will upload them once i manage to squeeze some time to upload them into my computer..

For now.. it's time to shut my eyes and rest my body..

Stoning..

It's such a S L O W afternoon.. Didnt get enough sleep last night and kinda stoning the whole day away.. Went for lunch after work with poh chuan, samantha and ms chong.. we were at yishun community centre(east).. there is this little cafeteria in there that's opened by ms chong's sister.. Gawd.. they kinda look identical.. even the spectacles that they wore is of the same color.. Hee..

Had a real value meal there.. Paid $4.50 for a plate of rice, with chicken chop, sausage, fried egg, vegetables and a roasted drumstick.. hee.. The set meal was actually $2.50, but i added this and that.. so hungry..

had a really satisfying lunch and by the time i finished eating.. i just wanted to sit there and sleep...so drowsy..

havent had any plans for the day.. feel like doing some sports.. but i cant seemed to find anyone that's free to do something with me.. aint that sad? wei is still playing with the Zee monster at this hour of the day..

Anyway, i finally found the way to fix my cherry header nicely on my blog.. It's aint the perfect solution but for now.. i think im happy with it.. *yeah!

Click.. Click..

Was almost out of the office for the whole day. Left the office at 10.30am right after a meeting with joseph. Am late for my appointment and i had to go grab some fruits for the photoshoot. The moment i stepped out of the office, the heavy rain drops poured over me.. My.. made a desperate dash to the bus stop (which is not very near!!).. Got there half wet, half panting, toes filled with sand and my heels was all wet!! Wanted to hop onto a cab but none were in sight.. *sigh* Spent my time in this bridal studio in clementi.. so tiring.. but hey!! i'm not getting married.. just that i had to bring my cakes for product shoot..

here are some of the pictures that i took for the day..



Am so tired for the night.. will comment more another day.. Time for bed!! *yawnz*

Medium rare anyone??

A little accident happened early in the morning. i was so hungry.. wanted to cook myself some cup noodles and ended scalding my hand.. didnt realised that i had filled the cup too full with hot water.. held the flimsy cup up and the hot water just flowed down my hand.. *Ouch!! Almost threw the whole cup down on the floor..

Here's a photo of my poor hand.. *sob* was in pain for the whole day...

Pocky? What Pocky??

So demoralised in the office and decided to so some quiz to perk myself up.. Here goes.. with compliments from jac's blog..

what flavor pocky are you?
[c] sugardew

Yishun Primary classmates gathering..

Met up with Yiping, Suping, Esmawati & Shenghao for dinner last night.. Here are some of the photos we took..

What smiley am i??

Hee.. am so bored that i decided to take the smiley test as well... Wow!!


:D

You're the outgoing smiley.

You love to kid around and laugh and are well-known. You can easily cheer someone up, and you're often in a good mood. Overall, you're an optimistic person.

What online smiley are YOU?!

@ Radiant

Gloomy Day..

Rain rain go away.. come again another day..

Was drenched in the rain when i came back from lunch today..

Took the quiz that was on michie's blog.. i think it's just so me.. *grinz*

what's your inner flower?
[c] sugardew

This is the day..

On this very special day... 24 years ago.. my beloved best friend is born.. For the past many many years.. i thank her for her friendship.. her company.. her laughter.. the joy that she brought into my life.. the tears that she caused me to shed..

A person is only complete
when she has a true friend
to understand her
to share all her
passions and sorrows with
and to stand by her
throughout her life
by Susan Polis Schutz

Thanks girl.. for entering my life and making it complete.

Happy Birthday to YOU!!
May all your wishes come true and hope life ahead is smooth and blissful..

Something meaningful..

Read this in the email that pei sent.. Thought it does sound logical and quite meaningful...

Did you know ???
Did you know that when you envy someone, it's because you really like that person?

Did you know that those who appear to be very strong in heart, are real weaklings and most succeptible?

Did you know that those who spend their time protecting others are the ones that really need some one to protect them?

Did you know that the three most difficult things to say are : I love you,Sorry and help me The people who say these are those that actually need them or really feel them, and they are the ones you really need to treasure, because they have said them.

Did you know that people who occupy themselves by keeping others company or helping others are the ones that actually need your company and help?

Did you know that those who dress in red are more confident in themselves?

Did you know that those who dress in yellow are those that enjoy thier beauty?

Did you know that those who dress in black, are those who want to be unnoticed and need your help and understanding?

Did you know that when you help someone, the help is returned in two folds?

Did you know that those who need more of you are those that did not mention it to you?

Did you know that it's easier to say what you feel in writting than saying it to someone in the face?But did you know that it has more value when you say it in the face?

Did you know that what is most difficult for you to say or do is much more valuable than anything that is valuable that you can buy with money?

Did you know that if you ask for something in faith, your wishes are granted?

Did you know that you can make your dreams come true, like falling in love, becoming rich, staying healthy, if you ask for it by faith, and if you really knew, you'd be surprised by what you could do.

But don't believe everything I tell you, until you try it for yourself , if you know someone that is in need of something that I mentioned of,and you know that you can help,you'll see that it will be returned in two folds.

Gathering..

Met up with michie, jac, yee tat and huisi for dinner last night.. Was late for the shopping spree that i arranged with jac before dinner.. Didnt want to be late of coz.. something unexpected has happened in the office.. someone lost the hp... *shrug* Kinda spoilt my day, but poor girl.. think she was almost on the verge of tears..

Had dinner at Sketches and both jac & me were late for the dinner appointment coz we were too caught up shopping.. *grinz* Havent met yee tat and huisi for ages.. and it was fun catching up with each other.. And hey michie, i found out that lizards belong to the reptile family!! not insects lah! *LOL*

Took some pictures and am still waiting for jac to send them to me... so that i can host them up..


Loaded on 9 July 2004, 6.55pm
Courtesy of jac & michie..

Pictures..

Here are the pictures over the weekend.. On my little trip to grandpa's place..

Rush Weekend..

Last weekend was a busy one.. It's was my grandpa's birthday and my aunt & uncles came back from the states for the occasion. I had to help them drive the shopping home coz they went around buying everything!!

Promised wei that we'll go G2000 for shop for working clothes.. so had to rush there in time before the shop closes.. Played snooker the whole night and only managed to get home at 7am on sunday morning when im suppposed to catch the 9+ train to grandpa's house. Mum & rest of relatives have already made their way to grandpa's house the day before..

I accidentally dozed off while taking a quick rest before i changed and got ready to make the trip into malaysia via the train.. Guess what? What i woke, it was 8.30am already and brother was banging hard on my door to wake me.. Took a quick bath, hopped onto a cab and headed to the train station. Got there just in time to catch the train before it moved off..

By the time the train pulled into the Rengam station, the birthday feast has already began and i have missed a couple of dishes.. But i guess the most important issue for the day is to let my grandpa catch a glimpse of me..

Many a times.. I thought it was troublesome and a chore to travel up north to my grandpa's house.. It's a long way by the road or by the tracks.. I didnt want to make it there this year coz i was so tired with my work and worried about being able to wake on time on monday..

A call to my grandpa's house last saturday changed my mind totally. I wanted to look for my mum, but grandpa picked the phone up instead. The next question that he asked kinda shocked me.. He asked, "Are you coming over?" Never in my life that he has asked me such a question, and i felt kinda awkward to be asked that.. I couldnt bring myself to say no.. told him that i'll be there the next day..

I was glad that i answered the way i did.. The next day, despite my tiredness and lateness at the feast, i could tell that he was glad that he saw me. He smiled at me though we didnt talk much.. Now that i think about it.. I miss those days when he used to chat with me over everything.. Now, he's quieter and keep a lot to himself.. I'm kinda worried about his health.. he hasnt been to regular check ups at the hospitals in the past years.. i really hope that everything will turn out fine..

I took many photos of the place, the surroundings, the train stations, the bus station and all.. Will load it up once i have the time at home. My time has been so stretch in the past few days that i hardly have enough time to rest..

I think this weekend has been really eventful.. I saw the big gathering of my family from different parts of the world once more.. I wonder how many more chances i'll get to see such a gathering in the next few years.. The candles on the cake are increasing by the year.. and grandpa has already reached a ripe old age..

It's never too late to learn to appreciate and care for the people around you that has made an impact in your lives.. it's only late never to realise the need to..

Do make an effort to bring a smile into someone's life. Life is never too busy to make a phonecall to someone that's precious to you..

Lazing in the office..

No "bosses" in the office today.. Quite fun chatting wth colleagues and gossiping about the company's stuff..

Waiting for time to pass.. suddenly, it's so hard when there is no one monitoring.. and there is nothing much to do..

Am now hoping that the lunch hour comes soon..

Almost a 12hr work day!!

After 2 weeks of working in the office.. i finally managed to take a photo of the office building.. Here it is.. after being blocked by many tress and lamp post.. but this is already the best view of the office..Clearly visible from afar..



Realised from today's work that Singaporeans are basically very KIASU.. Launched a promotion with OCBC staff today and everyone was calling in to enquire about the promotion even though the promotion runs for a straight 15 days.. and there are so many different questions and they keep requesting for things that are almost impossible. The phones are constantly ringing, the fax machine printing.. and the email keeps popping themselves into the inbox. The orders kept coming in even after office hours.. and i just cant leave the office with all those orders constantly coming in... especially those that are for the next day..

In the end, i had to leave by 8pm, before the alarm goes off.. and i left loads of work undone..worrying that it will pile to more work tomorrow.. but then again.. work can never be finished.. its only a matter of priority.. hee.. Anyway, i left home for dinner.. hungry, tired, thirsty and worn..

Hope tomorrow will be a better day..

Take a step a day, one at a time and someday.. the journey called life will unfold and end some point.

Live life as best for the moment and never look back, coz there's nothing you can change about the past.. but there's a future for your hands to mould..