a search for character.. seeking meaning of life.. losing naivete in the process..
Monday, May 30, 2005
here in lisbon..
wow.. i finally have a quick chance to blog on my uncle's ibook. internet access here is really expensive.. like 3.5 euro for 15 mins access!! weather here is very drastic.. can be really hot to really cold.. so weird.. had a fever the first few days in spain.. now, im getting used to it already.
nothing much here except castles and catherdrals. will blog again while im back. got to log off now. time to pack my luggage. got to gather 15 mins later at the lobby and leaving for salamanca.
i hope everyone is fine back in sing. havent got any sms from anyone abt anything yet except from wei. oh well.. got to run! bye!
Sunday, May 22, 2005
Goodbye friends.. Goodbye singapore
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heh.. am at the airport already, waiting for boarding. i missed the shark's fin soup at the dinner earlier. i only ate the cold plate and im on the run.. and its a sad thing that i didnt managed to see the video montage of the wedding this morning. i hope all is fine.
am really tired at this point of time. the last 2 days had been like a whirlwind. im hoping for a great nap on board the plane later. not feeling exactly too well. getting very sick. anyway, i'm keeping my fingers crossed and i hope to enjoy the trip.
michie, hope you have a great bdae while im gone. enjoy yourself and you'll be sure that i'll miss you badly!
sweetie, if u are reading this.. take care ya? anything sms me hor.. miss you laods.
ivy, hope you have fun on your honeymoon and im so sorry that i had to leave in the midst of your wedding dinner and it's a regret that i havent beeen able to take a photo with you.. but well, i know that people at table 13 + 14 will take good care of you!! :)
i'll be back only on the 3rd. abt 2 weeks from now. so in the meanwhile.. miss me loads!
Saturday, May 21, 2005
done with packing!
whee! its shopping time. i'm done with packing.. both my luggage and the stuff for the wedding tomorrow. didnt manage to get a nappie. gonna bathe and head out of the house. wont be back for a long long while!
please miss me LOADS!! -grinning cheekily-
piccies time!
i guess i wont be blogging anymore. gonna be done with my packing, take a 30 mins nap and get wei out to go shopping. having a splitting headache.. -argh-
lazing at work..
came really late for work today.. midway through my luggage packing, i was so tired that i dozed off in the midst of it.
at 8.30am this morning, my mum screamed at me cos i was still in bed. i didnt set my alarm clock.. my bed filled with clothes that i got to pack into the luggage. super tired and feeling sick.. after snoozing for 20 min, i had to drag myself to the bathroom.
i'm prob the latest person to reach the office. heh. slacked and blog surf all morning. nothing much to do. did most of them yesterday already. am now waiting for 12.30pm. i wanna head home and continue packing.. and maybe catch a little sleep before going computer shopping with wei. -feeling worn-
stoned..
23hrs and clock is ticking. i have not slept a wink. am superly frustrated now. argh. was uploading my pictures from my memory stick and when i tried to copy and paste.. then came this stupid error msg. i plucked out my memory stick from card reader and pluck it in and found all the photos ERASED!!!
u have no idea how hot and angry i am. really sore. the photos. shit! they are of the curry chicken lunch i had with my colleagues today.. and being the last day of seeing joycelyn in the office.. i took pictures of us together.. and the huge bee hive of my office with all the bees dead! now, all GONE!
darn my memory stick! darn my card reader! darn my computer! darn everything! f.u.c.k. i was still viewing the photos earlier and was really excited.. now its ONLY left in my memory.. one that i cant upload into the computer and print it out. -wails loudly-
shag..
6 hours through my room cleaning and im not done. its throw throw, wipe wipe, put back, sweep, mop, rearrange bla bla bla. went through a lot of stuff.. some that i dont remember owning. and a photo with a guy that i dun remember who. gawd. beginning to doubt my memory.
im hungry, super tired and not to mention that i havent started packing. congratulate me.. coz i got work tomorrow morning.
Friday, May 20, 2005
holiday mood..
stacks of paper on my desk, but i cant recall what i need to do at work now. i remember i have loads of stuff i need to do, but just dunno what. my mind is a blank. counting down to my holiday. wanna slack and do nothing.
got to pack my luggage tonite and see if i missed out anything so that i can do last min shopping tomorrow. aunt n uncles will be arriving then. sunday's the wedding and my flight.
i am hoping to blog when im there, cant be sure yet. but there wont be photos for sure n i wonder if the hotels has got free internet connection. my uncle's bringing his ibook but there wont be any photo editing software there. besides, i'll doubt he'll let me hog his com since he needs it to reply his work emails, 24hrs round the clock. anyway, im gonna keep a small journal for the trip..
im not done with my room cleaning. wanna throw out more junk. in the junk throwing mood recently. helps me de-stress.
i'll be loading photos tonight.. those of the past weeks.. that i havent had the time to post up. need to clear my memory sticks for the trip and pack my card reader into my luggage.
another 1 n a 1/2hr to knock off time. better start clearing my desk and prepare to leave this rut for 2 weeks. -whee!-
check my blog late tonite for photos!
music baton!
unknowingly.. i have been passed the music baton by hermit! if only i dun go blog surfing.. then i wont know the baton is passed to me.. heheh.. here goes..
Total volume of music files on my computer:
none on my office com. abt 1k songs on my home computer.. cant really remember since i have no access to it now..
The last CD I bought was:
i think it's Stef sun - leave me alone. anything after that, wei paid for it since it usually ends up in his car.. i'm hardly home to hear anyway.
Song playing right now:
nothing. no speaker in office com. usually nothing too back at home. hardly listen to anything.
Five songs I listen to a lot, or that mean a lot to me:
wahh.. this is a little sensitive.. i might get killed for putting down the "politically" wrong answers..
Dont want to miss a thing - Aerosmith
(both wei n me like this song a lot..)
tian hei hei - stef sun
(this is the only song i can sing in karaoke..)
right here waiting - richard marx
(this is my all time fav.. dunno y.. i think the lyrics are meaningful..)
love me - collin raye
(someone intro me to this song and i simply love it! ;) )
Summer Rain - Belinda Carlisle
(it always unknowingly bring me some sweet memories of the past..)
there's something i wanna put here.. i'm always memerized by all the songs wei sing.. not sure if he knows this. but i got to admit.. he sings damn well.. especially the hai guo tian kong (beyond) & this other cantonese song by jacky cheung (cant rem the title).
Five people to whom I'm passing the baton:
wenjing/shuyu @ o2zzzz.blogspot
ivy @ oopsitsivy.blogspot
eddie @ prince-eddie.blogspot
roy @ roychua.com/blog
charl79 @ xanga.com
have fun!
cursing non stop..
im having some problems connecting with the bloody msn back at home. everything works on my computer except that. icq, skype, ie, thunderbird, watever. just not msn. it's been 2 days. i feel so cut off from the msn world, and my msn friends. checked the msn server and it says all running fine.. so what? my internet connection decided it doesnt like msn and ban me from using? what a bummer!
and everytime i try to troubleshoot it, it kills my internet connection for everything. must be the stupid router and the firewalls! but i just dun get it.. it was fine.. and i took a nap on tuesday nite.. and woke up to find everything screwed up! and to think no one touched my computer and i didnt even shut it down. now what? the computer decided to boycott me since i left it to play its own screensaver while i peacefully took a nap in my air-conditioned room?
weird. must reset the stupid router thing in my bro's room. and guess what? i just figured that msn doesnt work on my mum's com as well.. and here i am blogging perfectly. this is crazy rite? -sighs deeply-
its late, but i cant sleep. got to clean up my room further and throw out some junk. the cleaning maid in me is recharging her batteries. got to go. am sleepy already. nite all. wish me well with my darn msn.
Thursday, May 19, 2005
when is enough enough?
it's sad. im supposed to be excited abt the weekend, but im all stressed up. coupled with a backache and impending fever, there's hardly any wind left in me.
there are a thousand and one things at the back of my mind that i need to do. but my mind and my body doesnt sing a synchronized tune. my eyes are constantly burning. eyelids getting heavier by the second.
was talking to my uncle on msn earlier.. and we were talking abt my super rich granduncle and how to be like him. uncle popped me a question and asked me, "so why are u doing what u are doing now? shouldnt u be striving be to like him?"
i wont deny the fact that its nice to be loaded with money.. but when is enough enough? im happy, earning enough to maintain my life and my little indulgences. is there really a need to strive hard, irregardless of ethics, being oblivious to the people around us (esp. those suffering) to achieve the state where people pride you as the rich, or so-called have "wind" when u walk?
besides, there's always the "hush-hush" senarios where the kids will be dying for you to kick the bucket some day so that they get their share at your accumulated wealth. i know its meanie to say this, but no one can deny that this can happen to anyone in this world. and being the practical, frank and super direct me, i told my uncle just that. -grins-
to put the story short, i think i rather be someone true to myself. someone ethical. someone whom still stays happy despite having a small pay check. of cos, i'll grumble.. who doesnt? but at the end of the day, i think im still contented abt my life thus far. besides, doesnt things/events will be more appreciated when u had to scrimp or save to buy or for it to happen? was just telling wei 2 weekends ago.. i miss the days when he's in the army while im in school. we were so broke, but we had so much fun. the little things in life will just fill us with joy. now that we are both at work, with reasonable income, we arent as happy as before. the sweetness of it may be robbed when u didnt have to work hard for it. sometimes, we'll all start taking things for granted. i do fall into those traps too.. afterall, i too, am just a mere human being.
Wednesday, May 18, 2005
i'm tagged!
was just blog browsing when i realised im tagged by michie with a book meme! Hmm.. im also one of the worst person to be tagged with a book meme.. kinda extreme opposite of michie. i read a book every week!
here goes..
1) Total number of books owned
at least a few hundreds, could be a thousand.. i really don't know. i keep all the books i read.. all my school textbooks.. and i still have the whole collection of enid blyton books that i read since im a kid.. and i do collect all of books of certain authors.. maybe i should start selling them..
2) The last book I bought
just 2 days ago. cant remember the title. think it's the villa of mysteries.. aint too sure coz its from an author i never read before. grabbed it for reading on my trip.
3) The last book I read
deception point by dan brown
4) Five books that mean a lot to me
men are from mars, women are from venus by john grey.
- my guide to understanding the opposite sex better
my organiser
- it's abt my life, my schedules, my appointments, my feelings and some little secrets
dictionary
- a book that never fails to teach me new things/words
my japanese textbook
- my guide to mastering the language
cant think of exact books that mean a lot to me.. too many books back at home and i read mostly friction.. oh oh.. maybe i can think of 1 more.
my secondary school autograph book
- i never see it again since 1997 when i passed it to a guy to write something on it. i doubt he'll be reading my blog now.. but he does.. my message is clear. i want my god damn book back! in there are a lot of my sweet secondary school memories and many precious photos.
5) Tag five people to fill this out on their LJs / blogs.
1. eric @ nomoresoup.blogspot
2. agnes @ obtuseyanzz.blogspot
3. sally @ skylarlady.blogspot
4. jacklyn @ livejournal
5. joycelyn @ mylittlewish.blogspot
Monday, May 16, 2005
feeling upset..
i don't know what's wrong with me this morning. i feel lethargic and sleepy. prob coz i didnt wash my hair this morning so there isnt the "refreshed" feeling that i always feel.
it's such a cold morning and i woke up shivering. i woke up pretty early, but ended up late at work, forgot to bring my lunch and forgot to bring the sports shoes that i helped samantha buy! not to mention that i cut myself earlier while trying to trim my eyebrow. argh! now, im feeling hungry, sick in the stomach, in pain and shivering despite having a shawl draped all over me.
what a way to start a week, especially one that i have been looking forward to. spent friday playing badminton with samantha and joycelyn at chong pang cc after work. Played only 1 hour cos a 2 hr slot wasnt available. and gosh, i didnt know badminton was that HOT! i tried booking all the sports halls and cc from choa chu kang all the way to yio chu kang and chong pang is the only place that has a 1 hr slot available. the rest, all FULLY booked!!
dinner was at the famous chong pang hawker centre.. haha.. had my favourite wantan noodles (been having that since i was in primary school!) and the seat was dripping with all my sweat and slime. heheh.. i was really wet after that 1 hour workout and was literally sliding off the seat.. pity the person who took my seat right after me.
spent the rest of the nite at home resting and clearing some part of my room.. chucking junk that i never use.
i hate sat morning when i had to work and last weekend was one of those. literally chatted and played game the whole time other than the last 1.5hr. headed off to far east plaza to rebond my hair at Hair Plus Studio after work. i must say they are really good in rebonding but they dont come cheap. but one thing about them is that they spend time checking out your hair and will treat different parts of the hair differently and will use different chemicals for the different parts. for example, they had to treat my virgin hair (chemical free hair), my dyed hair and my bleached hair with different chemicals. not to mention that they painstakingly seperate out the different hair textures, apply the chemicals to the different sections and using paper to seperate each layer of the hair so that the chemicals wont mix. it's not like some salons where they use one type of chemical for the whole head even tho u have different hair texture all over.
the result? 7 straight hours in the salon with sunflowers blooming on my butt. but i must say, im impressed with the result. for those who didnt know, bleached hair should never be rebonded cos it will just break the hair. not only mine didnt break, but it looked better and neater.
wei came to fetch me from the salon for dinner. heh.. think its so sweet for him to do that. he had to PR when he came and work at answering questions, etc.. cos the salon happen to be one of his clients.. (why do u think im there??)
the nite died away at Que n Que (marina south) where i pitted my snooker skills against 4 other guys at number ball. gosh! i cant see a thing when my rebonded fringe cover my eyes when i try to take aim.. but thank god.. i didnt lose a lot of money.
spent sunday lazing around.. something struck me that day. i suddenly realize that wei's mum started singing my praises. for the whole of sunday, she's been saying that i'm so good and fast at ironing compared to her.. that im good at computer and can teach.. that i can double up as a "hair stylist" since i was dyeing wei's hair.. i felt so weird!! at the back of my mind, im wondering if she's plotting a ploy to get me to do more housework.. hehe. i know im mean to say that, but somehow i cannot accept such a change after these years.
Hmmm.. i hope the week flies pass soon cos i wanna get out of this rut im in! i wish sunday will come sooner. ivy's wedding!! really excited.. and my trip!! -starts day dreaming-
Friday, May 13, 2005
the keys to my heart??
The Keys to Your Heart |
You are attracted to obedience and warmth. |
In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored. |
You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy. |
You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic. |
Your ideal relationship is traditional. Without saying anything, both of you communicate with your hearts. |
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. |
You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage. |
In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted. |
Thursday, May 12, 2005
...
today is a very down day compared to the rest of the week.. and the only thing that can perk me up a little is the dinner that im gonna have with michie later tonight.
I just took a box and tried packing my personal stuff into it. wanna bring it home with me tomorrow.. but a box is not sufficient. i might need another or a bigger box.
with the sale of the co, all the employment contracts will be novated. i wonder if they'll keep me, but then.. im always ready to leave. in view of my spain & portugal escapement, i am skeptical about leaving my personal items here and coming back to find them all classified under "company's properties". afterall.. it will be a full 2 weeks for me to be gone and a lot can happen..
im feeling a slight irritation at something. sick of the sight of my desk, my office and i wish i am now back home in my cosy bed. im darn hungry but have to wait till at least 1.15pm before i can lunch, unless my colleagues come back earlier.
-screams- ahhhh!
pek chek pek chek pek chek..
Wednesday, May 11, 2005
feeling satisfied..
had a super filling lunch. made spaghetti and brought to the office for a pinic with all my colleagues in the pantry (all girls only thingy). i only cooked the spaghetti.. or rather mum ended up cooking for me tis morning cos i couldnt cook it last nite due to fridge space constraints.
anyway, pc cooked a huge "bucket" of tomato-based sauce with fresh tomatoes, minced meat, loads of mushrooms, onions and it was superb. -slurp- toppled it off with free spicy tuna, clam chowder soup and lipton iced tea (all complimentary from the office).. cool rite? i think its fun and brings all of us closer together.
am now on relief as a receptionist again. everyone seemed shocked that i am here when they walked past after coming back from lunch. the silence in this place is kinda killing me... falling asleep.. battling my heavy eyelids..
Tuesday, May 10, 2005
feeling chilly..
im wearing a thick jacket and i cant help but feel cold. -grr- the raindrops are falling ever so softly on the roads, on the walls and against the windows of my office. the aircon here is freezing me!
my days has been packed and i hardly have enough time to breathe. last friday, i met up with yuxiong. Wanted to shop around for a coat and some scarfs. ended up buying 3 scarfs in coldwear and this winter coating shop in suntec. total cost damage: $45.90!
didnt have the intention to have dinner together but somehow, we both got hungry and dined at nydc! haha.. yeah, i was pushing for that cos i missed the mudpie!! headed right home after dinner cos i was so tired and he had to rush off to meet his gf for a movie. and shucks!! i forgot to take photos with him.. it's been like err.. at least 2 years since i last met him?? -sigh-
caught house of wax on sat nite. pretty cool show.. a little eerie and a little heart wrenching, especially the parts where the frens found each other. sunday was spent shopping with wei at J8.
monday came along and i was so tired.. not to mention that i had jap classes at night. thank god.. yee tat's fren came to fetch him and decided to give me ride home!! got home slightly earlier than usual. -so touched-
both of them aint living near me at all.. and i appreciate the gesture loads even tho the driver seemed to be driving in circles in hougang.. then jalan kayu, n tpe before hitting sle then yishun!! i prob be home much earlier if i was the one driving the car. i think i have a better sense of direction. heh.
today, im gonna meet chin yau for dinner. and hopefully have enough time for me to shop around for a coat and a dress. havent gotten anything to wear to ivy's wedding.. and suddenly it seems so near since i have to prepare for the trip AND the wedding.
seeing the events planned up in my organiser.. im freaking out knowing that i dont have much time left.. here's my calendar for the next few days..
wed nite - meeting agnes for jogging
thurs nite - meeting mich for dinner
fri day - going for 2 hours of badminton game with my colleagues
sat - work in the morning, rebonding session in the afternoon (likely to take at least 6 hrs according to the condition of my hair)
sun - got a secret date.. *wink*
mon nite - jap class again..
tue nite - nothing for now
wed nite - more jogging..
i rather not think abt it for now.. yee n goo are popping here next week from the states.. kinda excited to see them again..
and oh.. i was so hooked the "mystery of time and space".. another of those find the items and escape the room thingy games. but this is more challenging i guess.. so hard to stop. the best part is that u can always stop playing, close the window and start again from the level u last exited. got me so glued that i cant concentrate on my work!
oh.. the rain has stopped.. am waiting for the receptionist to come back from her lunch. poor girl, alone today. got to man the hotline, attend to guest at the front door and make sure everything is fine. kinda tough, but she's really good in her job. best that i've seen so far here. im falling asleep to the quiet surroundings here and a darn full stomach. besides, there's no msn to curb my boredom..
Monday, May 09, 2005
dog tired..
im feeling so restless even tho there are many things i wanna accomplish at the back of my mind.
it's mother's day today..i feel a little guilty that i didnt bring my mum out for a nice meal.. but i bought loads of food back for her tho. heh.
feeling very lethargic. think i will blog about my weekend tomorrow in the office. for now, i need to rest in bed. nite.
Saturday, May 07, 2005
im a cheater..
after getting michie's message of her solving the crimson room.. i decided to google for the answer.. hehe. the suspense is just killing me.
and so.. i found the way out of the room. always trust google when in need. *wink* and i think it's a little lame cos i doubt i'll get it even if i dun cheat. the url on the memo has a clue, but the url aint working anymore.. so, its so hard to even solve it!
for those of you who wanna try solving it.. the clue is at the mystery box.
anyway, the sequel to the crimson room is the Viridian Room. this is loads more challenging than the crimson room.. you'll need to collect a total of 18 items.. have fun challenging your brain over the weekend!
im so hungry now. wish i didnt have to waste my time here in the office. staring at my computer and waiting for time to pass.. -stomach groaning-
Friday, May 06, 2005
feeling restless..
super heavy lunch putting me to sleep now. i wish 2 weeks will quickly pass me by. i want to go on the trip badly.
with mother's day approaching, im getting bored. nothing much for me to do now since everything seemed to come to a halt since the announcement on tuesday. everything is so ambigious. everything i need to do is being put on hold, but the office hours are so long to kill!
had the intention to head home and sleep tonight, but decided that i wanna go shopping. pamper myself with a coat or maybe a scarf for my trip, just to keep the excitement up. i cant wait!! anyone wanna join me for a shopping spree?
mystery room..
wj sent this to me.. i only managed to find only 10 at first attempt and it's making me feel sick.. coz i keep spinning around the room. reminds me of the days when i feel so sick playing counter strike.
give it a try and let me know if you manage to find 3 more!! im darn curious what is behind that door!
There are less than 4000 people in the world who can escape this room . So have a shot.
http://flash.qbol.net/pl;p/youxi/images/04042203.swf
There are 13 items hidden in this room in order to let you get out of this room.
If you found:
0-6 items, your IQ is very low, total idiot
6-8 items, Low IQ, u r an idoit
9-10 items, u r normal
11-12 items, your IQ is high, above the average.
13 items found and get out of the room, there are less than 4000 people in the world can do it.
Updated: 9.52am
i found 12 items on 2nd attempt! argh!! where's the 13th!!
Thursday, May 05, 2005
weak legs..
my legs seemed to wobble now when i tried standing. i just came back from runing 5 rounds in the nearby jogging track with agnes. -out of breath-
hehe. i think im getting so weak. i have a feeling that my legs will be aching a lot tomorrow. spent about an hour catching up with her in the park.. just chatting about the years between us. gonna jog again next week, maybe i should do striding instead. got a feeling that im working on the wrong group of muscles.
visited chiew yen at thomson medical centre today.. the baby is SooOOoo cute. the face is so tiny.. i kept playing with it and patting it to sleep when chiew yen told me not to spoil the baby.. hehe. :P *Oops*
stayed there till almost 8pm and headed for dinner at the kopitiam opposite that serves really nice hor fun. havent ate there for a long long time..
my eyes are closing.. cannot make it already.. going to dry my hair and head for bed. shall update when i have the time tomorrow. good nite pals..
Tuesday, May 03, 2005
churning tummy..
today presents many un-expected twists. despite getting much sleep the day before, i still woke up late. but still, i didnt manage to be really late. was abt 5 mins late.
first thing first, im going to portugal for 12 days!!! yipee!! the trip was a last min decision and i almost couldnt go. granduncle had the dates 16, 22 and 30 may for the trip. i was fighting for 30th so i can go.. since ivy's wedding on the 22nd, but uncle fong cant make it. ;( mum was pushing me to go and telling me to explain to ivy abt not making it to her wedding.. and i was telling mum that if it is late night flight on 22nd, i might be able to go.. she called my granduncle early this morning and so it turns out.. its a 11pm flight!! im going to miss part of the wedding dinner.. but that's LOADS better than either missing the wedding or missing the trip! but i was already telling mum that i rather be at ivy's wedding than head for portugal, coz i can always make another trip and there will only be 1 ivy's wedding, besides.. its the first among the sisters!!
the morning in the office started off with an unexpected meeting. and so, the bank has approved a buyer for the company and we will be going through a period of evaluation and observation. so, im supposed to be goody good shoes for the next 2 weeks. please bear with me if i dun respond on msn during office hours. i dunno who will be watching my back this time.
im having mixed feelings abt the buy-over. im estatic that its finally happening, and maybe i'll get to work in a more serious-like, get down to business environment with more challenges, but it also dawned on me that i might lose some colleagues since everyone will be evaluated and given a new contract once the buy-over is complete. For all i know, i might be asked to leave too. who knows? heard the buyer is intending to bring over a whole new team and departmentalize every dept.. but i wont be too upset if that happens. heh, those who are close to me would know why..
and the observation is to start today. how great! with me so casually clad in a tank top and a mini fraying skirt (one of my super caual dressing). oh well.. nothing much i can change into rite? -sigh-
then my hp beep and i saw "cliff hp" blinking in my face. i answered the call, half thinking that he might have dialed the wrong number. and so, i was wrong. he was around the area and asked me out for lunch! Hmm.. did i hear wrongly? i brought lunch leh.. thankfully.. all my colleagues decided to lunch in and i donated my lunch to joycelyn!! she didnt order/bring food and the rest of my colleagues brought their own.. hehe. i didnt know if its suited to her taste, but i did tried and i dunno what's wrong with mummy today!! the fish is SooOOoooOOOoo salty!! i hope joycelyn didnt have a bad time with it.
anyway.. i decided to go lunch with cliff. i just felt weird that he asked and i tot if he has anything to ask me. so, as it seemed.. i was paranoid. it was purely just a lunch date, coz he's so bored to have lunch alone!!
i met up with chloe after work at bugis. on my way there, i received a msg from chiew yen and she has given birth to a baby girl!! so excited, but aww.. im not sure if i can make it to visit her coz im supposed to meet agnes for jogging tomorrow nite. =( feel a bit bad coz i promised her that i'll rush down to see her the moment she gives birth..
anyway, i havent really caught up with chloe for so many years.. and it just seemed that the years faded between us once we met. talked so much abt our poly days.. the people in the class and how they have been going on. yeah.. gossiping. heh. the good old days of poly year 1.. prob the most united class in poly that i ever had.
it was 9+ and i simply lost track of time. i was constantly reminding myself that i had to head home early today.. so, we parted shortly after and i rocked my way home alone on the train coz chloe still had to go back to her office to do some work.
back at home.. my tummy churned and im feeling so unwell.. gotta hide in bed with my dan brown book now.. time to head for dreamland too.. supposed to be early for work.. under observation you know.. sigh..
Monday, May 02, 2005
fantastic weekend..
the past weekend was fantastic. the first contributing factor is that there's no need to work TODAY!!
before i pen down the events of the past weekend.. this special day happen to be the birthday of not 1, but two of my friends!!
sat nite was filled with fun, laughter and enjoyment. joined the girls at the hotel and had fun preparing and dressing for the occasion. all of us had makeup slathered on our faces, and glitter all over. had a sucky buffet dinner but it was still fun.. the gossiping with the girls abt the restuarant crew esp. the captain.. critizing the food.. taking pictures..
we all havent partied in a long time, and didnt know where to go. finally settled at O bar for its cheap drinks. partytime was pretty wild with us playing drinking games. aww.. we wanted to get ivy drunk but ended up with pei drinking the most. hehe. i wanted so much to get drunk.. but somehow.. i seemed to be sober still. i was watching the pool players pitting their skills when this guy kept poking his fingers on my arms. he tried to strike a conversation, but i find it so bored. pretend to look distracted and pretend to start a conversation with the girls instead... each time my conversation halted.. i find the fingers poking at me again!!
in my mind was.. "argh, doesnt this guy has MORE tact?" simply irritating the hell out of me.. and the best part is he's aint good looking at all.. at least not to me and i was just entertaining him with short answers to his never-ending questions. i wished he would leave me alone. when we finally left the club for a karaoke session, he left me his number as well, and no.. im not interesting in calling him at all. he can try picking up other girls at the club. heh.
pei didnt join us for karaoke. she had classes the next day and the most important thing is that her head is spinning so much. poor girl. became the victim to the drinking game. shucks, we should have conspired before starting the game. it was my idea so that the drinking is at a much faster pace and i was thinking of getting drunk myself.
karaoke singing at partyworld was a blur for me. i was so tired from sleeping only 4 hours the night before, i laid down on the sofa to rest.. and the alcohol started to hit me. i didnt know what i was singing thereafter. hehe. i think i must have sucked when i sang, but still i was enjoying myself and drifting in and out of sleep.. towards the end.. i got so alert that when everyone is tired.. im energized.
took a cab back to the hotel, removed makeup.. changed, cleaned up and slumped on the bed to sleep.. it was about 5.45am, but i was wide awake. somehow.. reality hit me again and i didnt feel like sleeping. i stared at the darkness for a long time.. and drifted into dreamland after a while.
im quite a light sleeper and each time shuyu stirred in bed.. it woke me. i didnt had much sleep coz she stirred quite often. at 9+, i was fully awake but stayed in bed still.. listening to the sounds of the city bustling 24 storey below. at 10am.. all the girls woke and ivy & shuyu headed for the hotel breakfast while wenjing & me stayed in bed waiting for BK breakfast from the girls.
it felt like we were overseas. feeling so relaxed and just lazing around. one by one we went to shower and i got a call from raphael. the girls all had plans for the day already and i got myself a lunch date with raph. i left the girls at the hotel at 1.25pm and headed to sommerset to meet raph. had a really filling lunch at jack's place and heading home in the train right after. raph was rushing for this bbq with his colleagues in woodlands.
back at home.. i logged onto the net and saw moses on msn. heh. its a rare sight to catch him online. chatted for a while and we decided to meet up for pool. so at 5.45pm, he came over to fetch me and we went to play pool. after at least 26 matches of pool, i lost and was supposed to treat dinner and movie. aww. it was tremedously fun tho the venue had caused a tug at my heart.. reminding me of some events that happened just a week before.
dinner at simply thai sucks, but it gave me an opportunity of chatting with moses. despite having known him for the last 13 years, i seldom chatted with him alone. not in the last 2 years at least. it somehow reminded me of the days when we were in sec 1.. the then innocent and young me.. hehe.. and all the happenings at 1E corner. just brings a smile to my face thinking abt it.
we dropped the idea of a movie. there arent any nice shows showing at bugis and moses didnt want to watch a midnight and we already missed all the 9+ shows. so home we headed.
back at home.. im so worn out that i fell asleep in an awkward position while i was reading a book. i left my computer on and i woke this morning seeing a lot of msn msgs being sent to me. hehe.
spent the entire day at home.. catching up on my sleep.. getting a headache and had a super strong craving for ben & jerrys ice cream!! argh. i wish i can gobble down a tub this very instance, but at the back of my mind... the weight issue is bugging me. and that, has kept me from running downstairs to grab a tub.
another weird feeling is tugging at my heart. a distant longing for somebody. a weird sense of loss. but still, im happy and i believe life will still go on and the globe still orbits no matter what, rite? :P<
here are some of the photos that i took over the weekend.. there are loads more, but the girls has requested not to be posted on the blog. so, here's what i can show!